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Wednesday, July 7, 2010
My Sommet Story
So, I was going to wait to post this... but before closing down for the night, I thought maybe it would be good to catch my emotions as they are right now in this moment.
To say the least, I'm actually all cried out at this point ... or I think I am.
Long story short - I started a new job on May 10, 2010 at a company called Sommet Group. I received my Separation Notice on July 7, 2010. The past few days have resulted in a tax lien on Friday, Fourth of July observance on Monday, and an FBI raid on the company on Tuesday.
Here is my story for those of you who are curious...
My job description was Payroll Administrative Assistant but I pretty much only supported the VP of Payroll, Marsha - who is actually a managing partner along with her husband, Brian and father, Ed.
My job usually consisted of making copies, faxing, filing,Fed Exing, mailing and organizing. I was Marsha's assistant. Thus far, the best job I have ever had. Marsha was human... she was beautiful and young and bright... and funny... she cracked me up. I remember when we bonded for the first time - she asked me to make her some coffee... it was such a joy to me - because she took some time to really let me ASSIST her... but I was so excited to make her a cup of coffee. To those of you who know me, you know I LOVE TO HELP PEOPLE... lol! ... so seriously, a cup of coffee... really brought me JOY!
Let me tell you what I know of Marsha - she is humble! She has a heart for God. She never took advantage of me. She is funny and smart and spunky! My experiences with her have always been pleasant.
On Thursdays, I covered the front desk for our receptionist on her lunch break. I enjoyed my front desk time because it was an hour to interact with the third floor (the payroll department was on the second floor, which was secure) but the third floor was great... green walls and modern decor.. Great energy ... and great personalities all over Sommet Group. I usually received about 5 calls tops on a regular Thursday, but this particular Thursday was not regular. Within the hour I had to have received over 50 phone calls from irrate clients. Some were upset that their health insurance cards were not working and some were payroll clients who were upset that they were hearing rumors that their employees were not going to be paid... and some were upset clients who were calling about their tax delinquencies... this was very odd for a Thursday.
Finally, after a torturing hour... I headed back downstairs but ran into a coworker in the hall who said "what the hell is going on down there?" (on the 2nd floor)... I told her that I was unsure and asked her why... she said "I've heard from around the way that we're not getting paid next Friday because there is no money to pay us with" ... I just shrugged my shoulders... and went back to the payroll floor.
Friday, July 2, 2010 was a good day as far as I was concerned. Shredding documents, mailing checks, etc... I picked Marsha up some comfort food per her request (she never eats comfort food... only salads and grilled chicken sandwiches) but Friday's menu consisted of fried chicken, macaroni and cheese, and turnip greens.... and her well known sweet tea.
Friday afternoon around 3:30, I noticed it looked like Marsha was leaving.. but she almost always said goodbye to me... but she just walked past my office with our Marketing Manager who asked her "Are you ready" ... and she replied "yes". I figured they were going upstairs for a meeting... a while later, I was told by a coworker "We can't leave yet?!" ... it was 5:00 on Friday before the holiday and I was ready to go... I asked her why... and she said "the media is outside wanting a statement" I said "A statement for what?!?!" and she said "The state of Tennessee has placed a tax lien against Sommet Group". This startled me... and I started to realize something was wrong... but have to admit that I still felt that it would be worked out and I was sure it was some sort of misunderstanding.
Top Story on Channel 4 news that evening... very sad to hear them talk so bad about the company that I loved.
Monday, July 5, 2010 We did not have to work in observance of the fourth of July falling on a Sunday... yay! Day off with the family... well, my daughter, Trinity - just happened to fall on the playground on Monday evening and scrape her knee up pretty badly.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010 I woke to a sunlit room and had that feeling that I had overslept... I looked at the clock and it said 7:30 ... I had to be at work around 8:00 and still had to get up, get ready, get my daughter ready, fed, and to daycare... there was no way. So I asked my husband to take her to daycare. Once we woke Trinity up she was complaining a lot about her knee and she didn't want to go to daycare so I figured I would let her rest for the day. I texted Marsha to let her know I would not be in but that I was right down the street and could sneak away and would be on my way to do the mail soon (another job function was to sort and distribute the mail) She responded to me around 9:30 and said "No worries, someone else has already taken care of the mail, just stay home today". I thought this response was strange of her... but just went on about my business.
Around 11:00, Trinity was apparently tired of playing hookie... and asked to go to daycare... so I took her and dropped her off, hung out with my husband a bit (he was on scheduled vacation) and returned home to lounge... later I took a walk...
I had been battling some internal spiritual fight about people and worldliness... I struggle with this often... but I decided that I needed to get out for a walk with the Lord and a serious talk. I set off on my walk to the mailbox, which is quite a distance away... and I spoke with the Lord about friendship, Truth, His Will, seeking more of Him and trusting Him more... and I was interrupted by my phone ringing... a strange number with a strange area code that I was unaware of... so I ignored the call and let it go to voicemail as I continued my chat with the Father... after a few minutes I noticed I had a message and decided to check it. It was a coworker saying "Hi April, Marsha told me to tell you not to come in tomorrow... or until further notice... if you have any questions you can give me a call back" My first thought was "Wow! Did I just get fired over my voicemail and by one of my coworkers?!?! That is strange!?!" So I called my coworker back and asked her what was going on... she said "Are you not aware of everything that has happened today?!" To which I replied, "no, not a clue." She said "The FBI raided Sommet today ... check out the story for more details" she gave me the info to locate the story ... the title read "BREAKING NEWS: Feds allege wire fraud, money laundering at Sommet" http://www.williamsonherald.com/home?id=71235 You can click on the link to read the full story.
I was in awe. I just sat here... in awe.
Needless to say, the evening was filled with reading stories online and watching video clips of breaking news... it was shattering to know that this was my company. Completely unreal.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010 I woke up and received a voicemail from the same coworker saying that we had a meeting at 9:00 at Sommet. So I hurried my daughter to daycare and made a dash for Sommet. Coming through the parking lot was strange... I ran into a coworker on my way in. We greeted and gave a long hug. He was obviously upset. He said he wasn't getting paid.. so he was leaving and going to see if he could find some lawns to mow or something. I told him goodbye. As I walked up the back stairwell... I felt afraid for some reason... it was a strange feeling. I finally arrived to the third floor that homes suite 320 and today, when I opened the door to the office, a sad, sad, feeling came over my spirit. The office that was once full of energy and fun filled laughter was silent and eerie. No receptionist, no coworkers walking swiftly on their phones with clients or discussing orders... just silence and one employee sitting in a guest chair on his lap top. We smiled at each other and said good morning...
As I walked down the long hall I felt tears coming to my eyes.. I could sense hurt, frustration, anger, and many other emotions in the walls... just knowing that the FBI had been there and raided the place alone, was a strange feeling. I made it to our marketing manager's office where the meeting was being held to see a lot of drained people. They were tired... They were worried... we all sat around and told stories of what each person experienced... it was quite interesting. I was told of Chief Officers of the company who had resigned a few days before the raid and a lot of rumors were spreading fast... I asked if Marsha was coming... and was told No.
I feel like there were just people standing around... a lot of them afraid to ask if they were going to get paid on Friday... a lot of them curious to know if they still had a job... just people... walking around and not knowing where they were going. It saddened my heart.
Later, I returned to the second floor and opened my office door... I could tell it had been raided... but didn't notice anything missing. A coworker helped me box up my things.
We then went to the payroll manager to get Separation Notices and then over to the benefits manager to get Certificaes of Group Health Plan Coverage ... no one knows if we were fired.. or quit... no one knows... it was the strangest thing. Even to this moment I have not been told "April, you're fired" ... so it's just so weird... because you know there is no money... and you know you have no work to do... but to not be told you're fired... or to not quit... is a STRANGE thing...
So.. all that to say ... I don't know what's going to happen. I know I need a job.. lol! ... but as far as Sommet is concerned.. I don't know what's going to happen... I just know it's not looking good.
But I want to say this - I believe that regardless of what others think about people... I ALWAYS base my own opinion and feelings on what I know, experience, or have seen.
The Whitfield's are GOOD people from what I have known for the past five months. Maybe I don't know anything... but don't try to sway my opinion based on your own experiences... I have my own opinons.
Brian was always polite to me. I did not speak with him much, only in passing, but he was ALWAYS polite and greeted me. Majority of the time, he had a smile of his face and was on a mission... or so it seemed. Sometimes, he just simply dropped in to have lunch with his wife...
Marsha.. was amazing! By far, the BEST boss I have ever had. Humble and breath of fresh air. I remember just recently we had a talk about her daughter and a spiritual experience that she had... it was amazing.
Ed ... a GREAT man! A man of God.. a BIG heart! Super friendly!
Marsha and Brian have two daughters who I grew very close with over the past five months. My heart is aching for the whole family.
In my own opinion... I do not think that the Whitfield's were trying to involve themselves in ANY criminal activity. I think that a company was started ... and was doing good... and Brian wanted MORE because he saw it was good... so he made MORE... I think he (and WHOEVER ELSE makes decisions for Sommet) got in over their heads and didn't know how to stop it... I think they thought they could get a handle on it but the snowball was getting bigger and bigger... until it was just out of control.
I could be wrong.. but this is how I feel based on what I know.... (which is not a lot)... These people are PEOPLE... we are entitled to make mistakes.. and if they do go against the law, unfortunately there are consequences.... but the media makes everyone the DEVIL! No one has a heart for PEOPLE... because it's not good entertainment... and it sickens me...
I am hurt for everyone.. for the clients, for the employees, for those that are super sick and have no insurance coverage because of this mess, for those that are not getting paid this Friday and have no clue what they're going to do... I am hurt for the two daughters of Brian and Marsha.. complete innocense... and I hurt for Marsha and Brian. Bad intentions or not... I HURT. I care about their fear, regret, sorrow, embarrassment... call me soft... but they're people.
We all make mistakes... some bigger than others... and if proven that the "mistakes" are indeed with criminal intent... justice will be served... but people, I ask that you be praying for everyone involved. PRAY!
Pray for Sommet employees who are not receiving a check ... usually if you get laid off or fired, you have the comfort of knowing you have a paycheck or two before you're back to zero... NOPE.. not in this case... last I heard, no one was getting paid. Pray for peace. Pray for Jehovah Shalom (Lord of Peace) to show up and show out, pray for Brian and Marsha and Ed... and whoever else may be involved in this mess. Pray for clear thinking for them. Pray for the two daughters of the Whitfield's. They are 10 and 12... I can't even imagine.
That's my long story...
I pray that each of us will have clear minds and clear hearts. I pray that you always remember what is most important in this life and stay focused on that thing/things. I can tell you - The Love of Money is The Root to All Evil.
Persevering,
April
To say the least, I'm actually all cried out at this point ... or I think I am.
Long story short - I started a new job on May 10, 2010 at a company called Sommet Group. I received my Separation Notice on July 7, 2010. The past few days have resulted in a tax lien on Friday, Fourth of July observance on Monday, and an FBI raid on the company on Tuesday.
Here is my story for those of you who are curious...
My job description was Payroll Administrative Assistant but I pretty much only supported the VP of Payroll, Marsha - who is actually a managing partner along with her husband, Brian and father, Ed.
My job usually consisted of making copies, faxing, filing,Fed Exing, mailing and organizing. I was Marsha's assistant. Thus far, the best job I have ever had. Marsha was human... she was beautiful and young and bright... and funny... she cracked me up. I remember when we bonded for the first time - she asked me to make her some coffee... it was such a joy to me - because she took some time to really let me ASSIST her... but I was so excited to make her a cup of coffee. To those of you who know me, you know I LOVE TO HELP PEOPLE... lol! ... so seriously, a cup of coffee... really brought me JOY!
Let me tell you what I know of Marsha - she is humble! She has a heart for God. She never took advantage of me. She is funny and smart and spunky! My experiences with her have always been pleasant.
On Thursdays, I covered the front desk for our receptionist on her lunch break. I enjoyed my front desk time because it was an hour to interact with the third floor (the payroll department was on the second floor, which was secure) but the third floor was great... green walls and modern decor.. Great energy ... and great personalities all over Sommet Group. I usually received about 5 calls tops on a regular Thursday, but this particular Thursday was not regular. Within the hour I had to have received over 50 phone calls from irrate clients. Some were upset that their health insurance cards were not working and some were payroll clients who were upset that they were hearing rumors that their employees were not going to be paid... and some were upset clients who were calling about their tax delinquencies... this was very odd for a Thursday.
Finally, after a torturing hour... I headed back downstairs but ran into a coworker in the hall who said "what the hell is going on down there?" (on the 2nd floor)... I told her that I was unsure and asked her why... she said "I've heard from around the way that we're not getting paid next Friday because there is no money to pay us with" ... I just shrugged my shoulders... and went back to the payroll floor.
Friday, July 2, 2010 was a good day as far as I was concerned. Shredding documents, mailing checks, etc... I picked Marsha up some comfort food per her request (she never eats comfort food... only salads and grilled chicken sandwiches) but Friday's menu consisted of fried chicken, macaroni and cheese, and turnip greens.... and her well known sweet tea.
Friday afternoon around 3:30, I noticed it looked like Marsha was leaving.. but she almost always said goodbye to me... but she just walked past my office with our Marketing Manager who asked her "Are you ready" ... and she replied "yes". I figured they were going upstairs for a meeting... a while later, I was told by a coworker "We can't leave yet?!" ... it was 5:00 on Friday before the holiday and I was ready to go... I asked her why... and she said "the media is outside wanting a statement" I said "A statement for what?!?!" and she said "The state of Tennessee has placed a tax lien against Sommet Group". This startled me... and I started to realize something was wrong... but have to admit that I still felt that it would be worked out and I was sure it was some sort of misunderstanding.
Top Story on Channel 4 news that evening... very sad to hear them talk so bad about the company that I loved.
Monday, July 5, 2010 We did not have to work in observance of the fourth of July falling on a Sunday... yay! Day off with the family... well, my daughter, Trinity - just happened to fall on the playground on Monday evening and scrape her knee up pretty badly.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010 I woke to a sunlit room and had that feeling that I had overslept... I looked at the clock and it said 7:30 ... I had to be at work around 8:00 and still had to get up, get ready, get my daughter ready, fed, and to daycare... there was no way. So I asked my husband to take her to daycare. Once we woke Trinity up she was complaining a lot about her knee and she didn't want to go to daycare so I figured I would let her rest for the day. I texted Marsha to let her know I would not be in but that I was right down the street and could sneak away and would be on my way to do the mail soon (another job function was to sort and distribute the mail) She responded to me around 9:30 and said "No worries, someone else has already taken care of the mail, just stay home today". I thought this response was strange of her... but just went on about my business.
Around 11:00, Trinity was apparently tired of playing hookie... and asked to go to daycare... so I took her and dropped her off, hung out with my husband a bit (he was on scheduled vacation) and returned home to lounge... later I took a walk...
I had been battling some internal spiritual fight about people and worldliness... I struggle with this often... but I decided that I needed to get out for a walk with the Lord and a serious talk. I set off on my walk to the mailbox, which is quite a distance away... and I spoke with the Lord about friendship, Truth, His Will, seeking more of Him and trusting Him more... and I was interrupted by my phone ringing... a strange number with a strange area code that I was unaware of... so I ignored the call and let it go to voicemail as I continued my chat with the Father... after a few minutes I noticed I had a message and decided to check it. It was a coworker saying "Hi April, Marsha told me to tell you not to come in tomorrow... or until further notice... if you have any questions you can give me a call back" My first thought was "Wow! Did I just get fired over my voicemail and by one of my coworkers?!?! That is strange!?!" So I called my coworker back and asked her what was going on... she said "Are you not aware of everything that has happened today?!" To which I replied, "no, not a clue." She said "The FBI raided Sommet today ... check out the story for more details" she gave me the info to locate the story ... the title read "BREAKING NEWS: Feds allege wire fraud, money laundering at Sommet" http://www.williamsonherald.com/home?id=71235 You can click on the link to read the full story.
I was in awe. I just sat here... in awe.
Needless to say, the evening was filled with reading stories online and watching video clips of breaking news... it was shattering to know that this was my company. Completely unreal.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010 I woke up and received a voicemail from the same coworker saying that we had a meeting at 9:00 at Sommet. So I hurried my daughter to daycare and made a dash for Sommet. Coming through the parking lot was strange... I ran into a coworker on my way in. We greeted and gave a long hug. He was obviously upset. He said he wasn't getting paid.. so he was leaving and going to see if he could find some lawns to mow or something. I told him goodbye. As I walked up the back stairwell... I felt afraid for some reason... it was a strange feeling. I finally arrived to the third floor that homes suite 320 and today, when I opened the door to the office, a sad, sad, feeling came over my spirit. The office that was once full of energy and fun filled laughter was silent and eerie. No receptionist, no coworkers walking swiftly on their phones with clients or discussing orders... just silence and one employee sitting in a guest chair on his lap top. We smiled at each other and said good morning...
As I walked down the long hall I felt tears coming to my eyes.. I could sense hurt, frustration, anger, and many other emotions in the walls... just knowing that the FBI had been there and raided the place alone, was a strange feeling. I made it to our marketing manager's office where the meeting was being held to see a lot of drained people. They were tired... They were worried... we all sat around and told stories of what each person experienced... it was quite interesting. I was told of Chief Officers of the company who had resigned a few days before the raid and a lot of rumors were spreading fast... I asked if Marsha was coming... and was told No.
I feel like there were just people standing around... a lot of them afraid to ask if they were going to get paid on Friday... a lot of them curious to know if they still had a job... just people... walking around and not knowing where they were going. It saddened my heart.
Later, I returned to the second floor and opened my office door... I could tell it had been raided... but didn't notice anything missing. A coworker helped me box up my things.
We then went to the payroll manager to get Separation Notices and then over to the benefits manager to get Certificaes of Group Health Plan Coverage ... no one knows if we were fired.. or quit... no one knows... it was the strangest thing. Even to this moment I have not been told "April, you're fired" ... so it's just so weird... because you know there is no money... and you know you have no work to do... but to not be told you're fired... or to not quit... is a STRANGE thing...
So.. all that to say ... I don't know what's going to happen. I know I need a job.. lol! ... but as far as Sommet is concerned.. I don't know what's going to happen... I just know it's not looking good.
But I want to say this - I believe that regardless of what others think about people... I ALWAYS base my own opinion and feelings on what I know, experience, or have seen.
The Whitfield's are GOOD people from what I have known for the past five months. Maybe I don't know anything... but don't try to sway my opinion based on your own experiences... I have my own opinons.
Brian was always polite to me. I did not speak with him much, only in passing, but he was ALWAYS polite and greeted me. Majority of the time, he had a smile of his face and was on a mission... or so it seemed. Sometimes, he just simply dropped in to have lunch with his wife...
Marsha.. was amazing! By far, the BEST boss I have ever had. Humble and breath of fresh air. I remember just recently we had a talk about her daughter and a spiritual experience that she had... it was amazing.
Ed ... a GREAT man! A man of God.. a BIG heart! Super friendly!
Marsha and Brian have two daughters who I grew very close with over the past five months. My heart is aching for the whole family.
In my own opinion... I do not think that the Whitfield's were trying to involve themselves in ANY criminal activity. I think that a company was started ... and was doing good... and Brian wanted MORE because he saw it was good... so he made MORE... I think he (and WHOEVER ELSE makes decisions for Sommet) got in over their heads and didn't know how to stop it... I think they thought they could get a handle on it but the snowball was getting bigger and bigger... until it was just out of control.
I could be wrong.. but this is how I feel based on what I know.... (which is not a lot)... These people are PEOPLE... we are entitled to make mistakes.. and if they do go against the law, unfortunately there are consequences.... but the media makes everyone the DEVIL! No one has a heart for PEOPLE... because it's not good entertainment... and it sickens me...
I am hurt for everyone.. for the clients, for the employees, for those that are super sick and have no insurance coverage because of this mess, for those that are not getting paid this Friday and have no clue what they're going to do... I am hurt for the two daughters of Brian and Marsha.. complete innocense... and I hurt for Marsha and Brian. Bad intentions or not... I HURT. I care about their fear, regret, sorrow, embarrassment... call me soft... but they're people.
We all make mistakes... some bigger than others... and if proven that the "mistakes" are indeed with criminal intent... justice will be served... but people, I ask that you be praying for everyone involved. PRAY!
Pray for Sommet employees who are not receiving a check ... usually if you get laid off or fired, you have the comfort of knowing you have a paycheck or two before you're back to zero... NOPE.. not in this case... last I heard, no one was getting paid. Pray for peace. Pray for Jehovah Shalom (Lord of Peace) to show up and show out, pray for Brian and Marsha and Ed... and whoever else may be involved in this mess. Pray for clear thinking for them. Pray for the two daughters of the Whitfield's. They are 10 and 12... I can't even imagine.
That's my long story...
I pray that each of us will have clear minds and clear hearts. I pray that you always remember what is most important in this life and stay focused on that thing/things. I can tell you - The Love of Money is The Root to All Evil.
Persevering,
April
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Crying Out
Father, God...
My soul is weary and I am praying for it not to be sad or tired. My fleshly feelings are so overwhelming at times and I hate it. I hate being of this world when my heart longs to be in eternity with You. I know that my walk on earth is a test for my future in eternity...so, therefore, to spend one day in Your Courts is fully worth any suffering because I know it could never compare to the suffering of my sweet, savior... Jesus Christ.
Lord, I read in your Word and it tells us about relationship... and about having other Christians to walk with and to help stretch us and grow us... but for some reason it seems that I cannot connect with other Christian women... why is this? Am I destined to be alone? Do I have good friendships and just can't accept them for what they are? Do I not know how to be happy and no one will ever be good enough for me?
I don't feel that my expectations or standards are too high. Please help reveal if they are.
I always say that it's hard to be friends with me. Why? Because I want growth.
Recently a told a lot of friends and associates to no longer talk to me about gossip or negative comments about other people UNLESS they are venting to me and seeking advice on how to make their relationship prosper with other people... do you know what has happened since then? My phone hardly ever rings, I hardly ever have text messages, people do not show up to see me or make plans with me...
Is it bad timing, Lord, or is this the UGLY truth? If people cannot talk bad about others or share gossip... they just have nothing to say?
What about life? ... What about You, Lord, and all your goodness? ... What about goals? Where are the people who want to talk about eternity and purpose?!?!?! Have you called me, Lord, to be a leader to the people who are wanting more of You? ... Have you called me to have patience with them as they rise up? I guess your Word does tell us specifically that we will suffer as we live more and more for You.... so I shouldn't be shocked.
You know the desires of my heart, God... You put them there... and I do trust you! I do!!!!
Your plans are to give me a hope and a future! Please help me to see more of you and less of me in all things, God. Help me to persevere and press on. Give me strength and guide me. Grant me patience and wisdom, Lord.
Empty me of me so I can be filled with You.
You have overcome,
April Poynter
My soul is weary and I am praying for it not to be sad or tired. My fleshly feelings are so overwhelming at times and I hate it. I hate being of this world when my heart longs to be in eternity with You. I know that my walk on earth is a test for my future in eternity...so, therefore, to spend one day in Your Courts is fully worth any suffering because I know it could never compare to the suffering of my sweet, savior... Jesus Christ.
Lord, I read in your Word and it tells us about relationship... and about having other Christians to walk with and to help stretch us and grow us... but for some reason it seems that I cannot connect with other Christian women... why is this? Am I destined to be alone? Do I have good friendships and just can't accept them for what they are? Do I not know how to be happy and no one will ever be good enough for me?
I don't feel that my expectations or standards are too high. Please help reveal if they are.
I always say that it's hard to be friends with me. Why? Because I want growth.
Recently a told a lot of friends and associates to no longer talk to me about gossip or negative comments about other people UNLESS they are venting to me and seeking advice on how to make their relationship prosper with other people... do you know what has happened since then? My phone hardly ever rings, I hardly ever have text messages, people do not show up to see me or make plans with me...
Is it bad timing, Lord, or is this the UGLY truth? If people cannot talk bad about others or share gossip... they just have nothing to say?
What about life? ... What about You, Lord, and all your goodness? ... What about goals? Where are the people who want to talk about eternity and purpose?!?!?! Have you called me, Lord, to be a leader to the people who are wanting more of You? ... Have you called me to have patience with them as they rise up? I guess your Word does tell us specifically that we will suffer as we live more and more for You.... so I shouldn't be shocked.
You know the desires of my heart, God... You put them there... and I do trust you! I do!!!!
Your plans are to give me a hope and a future! Please help me to see more of you and less of me in all things, God. Help me to persevere and press on. Give me strength and guide me. Grant me patience and wisdom, Lord.
Empty me of me so I can be filled with You.
You have overcome,
April Poynter
Friday, July 2, 2010
In Light of Eternity
I want to share a passage out of a book that me and some of my friends are reading together as a walk in Christ together to grow ourselves and to grow our relationship with each other set on the solid foundation of Christ. Do you have relationships that continuously fall apart... ask yourself "are these relationships set on a firm foundation or are they set on the foundation of sinking sand .... of talking about other people in negative ways, gossip, fear, jealousy, envy, trying to knock the other person down... never wanting them to do better or have more than me...?" Really do a self check of why these things are not working out in your favor.
I am so excited to be reading this book with two good friends of mine because it gives us a glorious common ground. If you would like to get in on this, it's not too late. The book is The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren and today we are reading chapter 4. We read a chapter a day. If you can't get the book right now, I would encourage you to get it a little later and then get one or two other people to go through the 40 day journey with you.
This is what really stood out to me today:
"When you fully comprehend that there is more to life than just here and now, and you realize that life is just preparation for eternity, you will being to live differently. You will start living in light of eternity, and that will color how you handle every relationship, task, and circumstance. Suddenly many activities, goals, and even problems that seemed so important will appear trivial, petty, and unworthy of your attention. The closer you live to God, the smaller everything else appear."
Let that passage really marinate all over you today.
Love you all and have a great holiday weekend!
Seeking more of the Truth,
April Poynter
I am so excited to be reading this book with two good friends of mine because it gives us a glorious common ground. If you would like to get in on this, it's not too late. The book is The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren and today we are reading chapter 4. We read a chapter a day. If you can't get the book right now, I would encourage you to get it a little later and then get one or two other people to go through the 40 day journey with you.
This is what really stood out to me today:
"When you fully comprehend that there is more to life than just here and now, and you realize that life is just preparation for eternity, you will being to live differently. You will start living in light of eternity, and that will color how you handle every relationship, task, and circumstance. Suddenly many activities, goals, and even problems that seemed so important will appear trivial, petty, and unworthy of your attention. The closer you live to God, the smaller everything else appear."
Let that passage really marinate all over you today.
Love you all and have a great holiday weekend!
Seeking more of the Truth,
April Poynter
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Open The Eyes of My Heart
Have you ever heard the lyrics "Open the eyes of my heart, Lord. Open the eyes of my heart. I want to see You. I want to see You." ?
Today as I was coming down the stairwell this song popped into my head and it made me ponder -open the eyes of my heart. What exactly does that mean? So I thought it would be something interesting to write about.
There is only so much we can see with our eyes. Our eyes are a terrific gift to have and to see through but what do they show us? They show us color, size, shape, and action. We can see people do nice things and we can see them do mean things. We can see people cry and laugh and show love towards each other but we can see people be rude as well.
So why would we want God to open the eyes of our hearts? Our hearts can feel and see so much more than our eyes ever could. You may have heard before that the Christian walk is about the heart's condition and that God wants our hearts more than anything. The purpose of the heart's condition is that we can be an extreme mess, and we can do things that the eye sees as horrible... that is our flesh and we are going to fail many times again - but when our hearts are being worked on and we are truly trying to change and be better for the Kingdom, what the world sees as horrible, God has grace and mercy upon.... all because of the heart's condition.
God can reveal things to us through our hearts. Because our spirits do not belong to this world, our spirits can feel and see things through the heart whereas our eyes see the things of this world. So to ask God to open the eyes of our hearts is inviting our Creator in to our hearts to clean up the mess and renew us so that we can see things on a spiritual level.
My prayer today is - Lord, please open the eyes of my heart and let me see more of You through a world that is so draining and blinding to my physical eyes. Please help me to feel the hearts of others and to have more mercy towards their failures as you have had so much mercy towards mine. Help me to believe in my unbelief.
Ask God to open the eyes of your heart and be ready to see what He has to show you!
Shine Bright!
April
Today as I was coming down the stairwell this song popped into my head and it made me ponder -open the eyes of my heart. What exactly does that mean? So I thought it would be something interesting to write about.
There is only so much we can see with our eyes. Our eyes are a terrific gift to have and to see through but what do they show us? They show us color, size, shape, and action. We can see people do nice things and we can see them do mean things. We can see people cry and laugh and show love towards each other but we can see people be rude as well.
So why would we want God to open the eyes of our hearts? Our hearts can feel and see so much more than our eyes ever could. You may have heard before that the Christian walk is about the heart's condition and that God wants our hearts more than anything. The purpose of the heart's condition is that we can be an extreme mess, and we can do things that the eye sees as horrible... that is our flesh and we are going to fail many times again - but when our hearts are being worked on and we are truly trying to change and be better for the Kingdom, what the world sees as horrible, God has grace and mercy upon.... all because of the heart's condition.
God can reveal things to us through our hearts. Because our spirits do not belong to this world, our spirits can feel and see things through the heart whereas our eyes see the things of this world. So to ask God to open the eyes of our hearts is inviting our Creator in to our hearts to clean up the mess and renew us so that we can see things on a spiritual level.
My prayer today is - Lord, please open the eyes of my heart and let me see more of You through a world that is so draining and blinding to my physical eyes. Please help me to feel the hearts of others and to have more mercy towards their failures as you have had so much mercy towards mine. Help me to believe in my unbelief.
Ask God to open the eyes of your heart and be ready to see what He has to show you!
Shine Bright!
April
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Wedding Speech for Gina Claybrooks - 6.19.2010
I just want to say how honored I am to be Gina’s friend. I don’t use the word “friend” loosely. Gina is one of those rare treasures that steps into your life and blows you away. She deserves more than to just be called friend.
Over the past few years in my life I have been on my knees begging God for a friend. For a REAL friend! For someone who cares about me just as much as I care about them. In 2009, God introduced me to Gina, who at the time, I never imagined becoming my best friend. When I met Gina she was the girlfriend of my old high school best friend, Brandon. I have known Brandon since 6th grade and we connected immediately. We continued our awesome friendship even out of high school until inevitably, time just carried us apart.
Brandon and I talked a few years ago about the new girl in his life and how she does hair (and I’m all about hair) and Gina and I just hit it off after that…. But it wasn’t until a few months ago that we really started spending time together and the chemistry took off like nothing I could have ever imagined. That is totally the works of God. His ways are not our ways and His timing is perfect …me and Gina’s friendship proves this to the fullest. Gina and I have been stuck together just like best friends!
God knew that back in the day when I was praying fervently over a great friend that He would soon fill my life with Gina and she was well worth the wait.
Gina is stunning, just look at her. Her heart is so big. Gina is RADIANT. Her presence fills a room up with light and her laugh is contagious! I can picture it in my head now.. me and her just kicked back on the couch and cracking up over some random stuff. Don’t get me wrong.. Gina’s great and all but she’s feisty too! She has a little fire in her and a neck twist, eye brow lifting attitude that she can break out if need be.. She has to keep ‘em in line if they fall out. Haha! But I admire her for this quality because she only uses it at the appropriate time. … or if she’s really tired.. or hungry… or … nevermind…
Gina’s heart hungers for Christ and this is the greatest quality that anyone could ever have. I remember her coming to my apartment and showing me her marriage devotional and new bible that she got and then I broke out my marriage devotional and we just talked about how important it is to have Christ in your marriage as your firm foundation. Gina and Brandon will have such a beautiful marriage with this hunger for Christ.
My heart tells me “hang on to this girl because she is something special” and I know that Brandon’s heart told him that as well. The Heavenlies are cheering Gina and Brandon on right now! These two are best friends! Brandon makes her laugh so much and she makes Brandon laugh …. Or at least she does when she uses his sense of humor…. But either way… He makes her laugh and that is so important! They’re a team!
I am humbled and grateful to know you, Gina, and my heart is so happy for you and in my selfishness, happy for me, because I get to be here for this journey with you. Hearing stories about the honey moon, knowing your love of Brandon and your pet peeves with Brandon, to painting the nursery, closing on a house, new careers and riding around in new cars even if we have to return them after the joy ride because we got in over our heads, coffee dates, and trying to force you to eat sushi ..haha.. and many more memories that are unknown. I am so excited for everything that God has planned for you and for us!
Like I was saying earlier… I don’t use the term friend loosely at all and so I decided to look up the definition of friend and this is what I found:
Definition of a friend: a person you know well and regard with affection and trust
So, I see why a lot of folks call a plethora of people “friend”… But you seem like so much more than that measly definition so I came up with a new name for friend that only applies to you – You are no longer my friend, you are my Regina!
R- Radiant – breath taking like the light reflecting from the sun… almost blinding. Your heart shines and lights up everything around you.E- Enchanting – capturing interest as if by a spell. G- Gorgeous – Dazzlingly Beautiful! / Genuine – not fake or counterfeit, not pretended; sincerely felt or expressedI – Intelligent – smart, conversation is interesting with Gina and you can learn something.N- Noble – high and elevated characterA – Astounding – surprisingly impressive
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails.
I love you both and congratulations and shine bright!
Over the past few years in my life I have been on my knees begging God for a friend. For a REAL friend! For someone who cares about me just as much as I care about them. In 2009, God introduced me to Gina, who at the time, I never imagined becoming my best friend. When I met Gina she was the girlfriend of my old high school best friend, Brandon. I have known Brandon since 6th grade and we connected immediately. We continued our awesome friendship even out of high school until inevitably, time just carried us apart.
Brandon and I talked a few years ago about the new girl in his life and how she does hair (and I’m all about hair) and Gina and I just hit it off after that…. But it wasn’t until a few months ago that we really started spending time together and the chemistry took off like nothing I could have ever imagined. That is totally the works of God. His ways are not our ways and His timing is perfect …me and Gina’s friendship proves this to the fullest. Gina and I have been stuck together just like best friends!
God knew that back in the day when I was praying fervently over a great friend that He would soon fill my life with Gina and she was well worth the wait.
Gina is stunning, just look at her. Her heart is so big. Gina is RADIANT. Her presence fills a room up with light and her laugh is contagious! I can picture it in my head now.. me and her just kicked back on the couch and cracking up over some random stuff. Don’t get me wrong.. Gina’s great and all but she’s feisty too! She has a little fire in her and a neck twist, eye brow lifting attitude that she can break out if need be.. She has to keep ‘em in line if they fall out. Haha! But I admire her for this quality because she only uses it at the appropriate time. … or if she’s really tired.. or hungry… or … nevermind…
Gina’s heart hungers for Christ and this is the greatest quality that anyone could ever have. I remember her coming to my apartment and showing me her marriage devotional and new bible that she got and then I broke out my marriage devotional and we just talked about how important it is to have Christ in your marriage as your firm foundation. Gina and Brandon will have such a beautiful marriage with this hunger for Christ.
My heart tells me “hang on to this girl because she is something special” and I know that Brandon’s heart told him that as well. The Heavenlies are cheering Gina and Brandon on right now! These two are best friends! Brandon makes her laugh so much and she makes Brandon laugh …. Or at least she does when she uses his sense of humor…. But either way… He makes her laugh and that is so important! They’re a team!
I am humbled and grateful to know you, Gina, and my heart is so happy for you and in my selfishness, happy for me, because I get to be here for this journey with you. Hearing stories about the honey moon, knowing your love of Brandon and your pet peeves with Brandon, to painting the nursery, closing on a house, new careers and riding around in new cars even if we have to return them after the joy ride because we got in over our heads, coffee dates, and trying to force you to eat sushi ..haha.. and many more memories that are unknown. I am so excited for everything that God has planned for you and for us!
Like I was saying earlier… I don’t use the term friend loosely at all and so I decided to look up the definition of friend and this is what I found:
Definition of a friend: a person you know well and regard with affection and trust
So, I see why a lot of folks call a plethora of people “friend”… But you seem like so much more than that measly definition so I came up with a new name for friend that only applies to you – You are no longer my friend, you are my Regina!
R- Radiant – breath taking like the light reflecting from the sun… almost blinding. Your heart shines and lights up everything around you.E- Enchanting – capturing interest as if by a spell. G- Gorgeous – Dazzlingly Beautiful! / Genuine – not fake or counterfeit, not pretended; sincerely felt or expressedI – Intelligent – smart, conversation is interesting with Gina and you can learn something.N- Noble – high and elevated characterA – Astounding – surprisingly impressive
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails.
I love you both and congratulations and shine bright!
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Mentor Friend, Mentee Friend, Mutual Friend
I wanted to share this article on my blog by Mary Fairchild from about.com - to see the original article you can visit the website below:
http://christianity.about.com/od/womensresources/a/christianfriends.htm
Friends come,
Friends go,
But a true friend is there to watch you grow.
A woman named Florence posted this short poem on a forum I visited. I thought it conveyed the idea of true friendship with perfect simplicity. It reminded me of a teaching I heard years ago at a singles retreat. The lessons on three types of Christian friends were taught by Nancy Honeytree, a singer/songwriter who was one of the pioneers of contemporary Christian music. Her simple but valuable teaching stuck with me, helping me over the years to cultivate a few treasured friendships.
3 Types of Christian Friendships:
Mentor Friendship
The first form of Christian friendship Honeytree talked about was a mentor friendship. In a mentoring relationship we teach, counsel or disciple other Christian friends. This is a relationship based on ministry, similar to the kind Jesus had with his disciples.
Mentee Friendship
In a mentee friendship, we are the one being taught, counseled, or discipled. We are on the receiving end of ministry, being served by a mentor. This is similar to the way the disciples received from Jesus.
Mutual Friendship
Mutual friendships are not based on mentoring. Rather, in these situations the two individuals are usually more closely aligned on a spiritual level, balancing the natural flow of giving and receiving between genuine Christian friends. We'll explore mutual friendships more closely, but first, it's important to have a clear understanding of mentoring relationships, so we don't get the two confused.
Mentoring friendships can easily become draining if both parties don't recognize the nature of the relationship and construct appropriate boundaries. The mentor may need to pull back and take time for spiritual renewal. He may even have to say no at times, setting limits on his commitment to the mentee.
Likewise, a mentee who expects too much from his mentor is probably seeking a mutual bond with the wrong person. Mentees must respect boundaries and look for close friendship with someone other than a mentor.
We can be both mentor and mentee, but not with the same friend. We may know a mature believer who mentors us in God's Word, while in turn, we take time to mentor a brand new follower of Christ.
Mutual friendships are quite different than mentoring friendships. These relationships don't usually happen overnight. Typically, they develop over time as both friends progress in wisdom and spiritual maturity. A strong Christian friendship blossoms naturally when two friends grow together in faith, goodness, knowledge, and other godly graces.
5 Traits of True Christian Friends
So, what does a true Christian friendship look like? Let's break it down into traits that are easy to identify.
Christian Friends Love Sacrificially
John 15:13
Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. (NIV)
Jesus is the finest example of a true Christian friend. His love for us is sacrificial, never selfish. He demonstrated it not only through his miracles of healing, but more fully through the humble service of washing the disciples' feet, and then ultimately, when he laid down his life on the cross.
If we choose our friends based only on what they have to offer, we'll rarely discover the blessings of a genuine friendship. Philippians 2:3 says, "Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves." By valuing your friend's needs above your own, you'll be on your way to loving like Jesus. In the process, you'll likely gain a true friend.
Christian Friends Accept Unconditionally
Proverbs 17:17
A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity. (NIV)
We discover the best of friendships with brothers and sisters who know and accept our weaknesses and imperfections.
If we're easily offended or hold on to bitterness, we'll have a hard time making friends. No one is perfect. We all make mistakes now and then. If we take a truthful look at ourselves, we'll admit that we bear some of the blame when things go wrong in a friendship. A good friend is quick to ask forgiveness and ready to be forgiving.
Christian Friends Trust Completely
Proverbs 18:24
A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. (NIV)
This proverb reveals that a true Christian friend is trustworthy, indeed, but emphasizes a second important truth as well. We should only expect to share complete trust with a few loyal friends. Trusting too easily can lead to ruin, so be careful about putting your confidence in a mere companion. Over time our true Christian friends will prove their trustworthiness by sticking closer than a brother or sister.
Christian Friends Keep Healthy Boundaries
1 Corinthians 13:4
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy ... (NIV)
If you feel smothered in a friendship, something is wrong. Likewise, if you feel used or abused, something is amiss. Recognizing what's best for someone and giving that person space are signs of a healthy relationship. We should never let a friend come between us and our spouse. A true Christian friend will wisely avoid intruding and recognize your need to maintain other relationships.
Christian Friends Give Mutual Edification
Proverbs 27:6
Wounds from a friend can be trusted ... (NIV)
True Christian friends will build each other up emotionally, spiritually, and physically. Friends like to be together simply because it feels good. We receive strength, encouragement, and love. We talk, we cry, we listen. But at times we also have to say the difficult things our dearest friend needs to hear. Yet, because of the shared trust and acceptance, we are the one person who can impact our friend's heart, for we know how to deliver the hard message with truth and grace. I believe this is what Proverbs 27:17 means when it says, "As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another."
My hope is that these five traits will show you areas that may need a little work in your effort to build stronger friendships. But if you don't have lots of close friends, don't be too hard on yourself. Remember, true Christian friendships are rare treasures. They take time to nurture, but in the process we grow more Christlike.
http://christianity.about.com/od/womensresources/a/christianfriends.htm
Friends come,
Friends go,
But a true friend is there to watch you grow.
A woman named Florence posted this short poem on a forum I visited. I thought it conveyed the idea of true friendship with perfect simplicity. It reminded me of a teaching I heard years ago at a singles retreat. The lessons on three types of Christian friends were taught by Nancy Honeytree, a singer/songwriter who was one of the pioneers of contemporary Christian music. Her simple but valuable teaching stuck with me, helping me over the years to cultivate a few treasured friendships.
3 Types of Christian Friendships:
Mentor Friendship
The first form of Christian friendship Honeytree talked about was a mentor friendship. In a mentoring relationship we teach, counsel or disciple other Christian friends. This is a relationship based on ministry, similar to the kind Jesus had with his disciples.
Mentee Friendship
In a mentee friendship, we are the one being taught, counseled, or discipled. We are on the receiving end of ministry, being served by a mentor. This is similar to the way the disciples received from Jesus.
Mutual Friendship
Mutual friendships are not based on mentoring. Rather, in these situations the two individuals are usually more closely aligned on a spiritual level, balancing the natural flow of giving and receiving between genuine Christian friends. We'll explore mutual friendships more closely, but first, it's important to have a clear understanding of mentoring relationships, so we don't get the two confused.
Mentoring friendships can easily become draining if both parties don't recognize the nature of the relationship and construct appropriate boundaries. The mentor may need to pull back and take time for spiritual renewal. He may even have to say no at times, setting limits on his commitment to the mentee.
Likewise, a mentee who expects too much from his mentor is probably seeking a mutual bond with the wrong person. Mentees must respect boundaries and look for close friendship with someone other than a mentor.
We can be both mentor and mentee, but not with the same friend. We may know a mature believer who mentors us in God's Word, while in turn, we take time to mentor a brand new follower of Christ.
Mutual friendships are quite different than mentoring friendships. These relationships don't usually happen overnight. Typically, they develop over time as both friends progress in wisdom and spiritual maturity. A strong Christian friendship blossoms naturally when two friends grow together in faith, goodness, knowledge, and other godly graces.
5 Traits of True Christian Friends
So, what does a true Christian friendship look like? Let's break it down into traits that are easy to identify.
Christian Friends Love Sacrificially
John 15:13
Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. (NIV)
Jesus is the finest example of a true Christian friend. His love for us is sacrificial, never selfish. He demonstrated it not only through his miracles of healing, but more fully through the humble service of washing the disciples' feet, and then ultimately, when he laid down his life on the cross.
If we choose our friends based only on what they have to offer, we'll rarely discover the blessings of a genuine friendship. Philippians 2:3 says, "Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves." By valuing your friend's needs above your own, you'll be on your way to loving like Jesus. In the process, you'll likely gain a true friend.
Christian Friends Accept Unconditionally
Proverbs 17:17
A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity. (NIV)
We discover the best of friendships with brothers and sisters who know and accept our weaknesses and imperfections.
If we're easily offended or hold on to bitterness, we'll have a hard time making friends. No one is perfect. We all make mistakes now and then. If we take a truthful look at ourselves, we'll admit that we bear some of the blame when things go wrong in a friendship. A good friend is quick to ask forgiveness and ready to be forgiving.
Christian Friends Trust Completely
Proverbs 18:24
A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. (NIV)
This proverb reveals that a true Christian friend is trustworthy, indeed, but emphasizes a second important truth as well. We should only expect to share complete trust with a few loyal friends. Trusting too easily can lead to ruin, so be careful about putting your confidence in a mere companion. Over time our true Christian friends will prove their trustworthiness by sticking closer than a brother or sister.
Christian Friends Keep Healthy Boundaries
1 Corinthians 13:4
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy ... (NIV)
If you feel smothered in a friendship, something is wrong. Likewise, if you feel used or abused, something is amiss. Recognizing what's best for someone and giving that person space are signs of a healthy relationship. We should never let a friend come between us and our spouse. A true Christian friend will wisely avoid intruding and recognize your need to maintain other relationships.
Christian Friends Give Mutual Edification
Proverbs 27:6
Wounds from a friend can be trusted ... (NIV)
True Christian friends will build each other up emotionally, spiritually, and physically. Friends like to be together simply because it feels good. We receive strength, encouragement, and love. We talk, we cry, we listen. But at times we also have to say the difficult things our dearest friend needs to hear. Yet, because of the shared trust and acceptance, we are the one person who can impact our friend's heart, for we know how to deliver the hard message with truth and grace. I believe this is what Proverbs 27:17 means when it says, "As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another."
My hope is that these five traits will show you areas that may need a little work in your effort to build stronger friendships. But if you don't have lots of close friends, don't be too hard on yourself. Remember, true Christian friendships are rare treasures. They take time to nurture, but in the process we grow more Christlike.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Ginger & Epsom Salt Detox Bath
Wow! Let me tell you... I tried this on Sunday night and it does work.
What you need:
natural fiber skin scrubber
bath tub
2 tbsps of fresh grated ginger
2 cups of epsom salt (not scented)
Start this process by skin scrubbing towards your heart on all parts of your body.
Mix the ginger and salt in warm water
Run a bath as hot as you can stand it and pour in the ginger/salt/water mixture.
Stay in the bath for 30 minutes (no longer than 30 minutes)
After about 15-20 minutes you will start sweating pretty heavily - this is normal
After 30 minutes, scrub dry with a towel (firmly) and then wrap in a clean dry towel and get into bed and bundle up with your covers (you may want to use old covers and put some towels under you because you're going to continue to sweat). You will continue to sweat out toxins for hours - so just let your mind go blank and you will fall into a pretty deep sleep.
This really works! Please note that you may experience a pretty rough headache the next day which is actually a good sign, that means your body is still rapidly releasing toxins from your body. Also, be sure to hyrdrate!
This is a great way to start a weight loss program!
Have fun! :o)
What you need:
natural fiber skin scrubber
bath tub
2 tbsps of fresh grated ginger
2 cups of epsom salt (not scented)
Start this process by skin scrubbing towards your heart on all parts of your body.
Mix the ginger and salt in warm water
Run a bath as hot as you can stand it and pour in the ginger/salt/water mixture.
Stay in the bath for 30 minutes (no longer than 30 minutes)
After about 15-20 minutes you will start sweating pretty heavily - this is normal
After 30 minutes, scrub dry with a towel (firmly) and then wrap in a clean dry towel and get into bed and bundle up with your covers (you may want to use old covers and put some towels under you because you're going to continue to sweat). You will continue to sweat out toxins for hours - so just let your mind go blank and you will fall into a pretty deep sleep.
This really works! Please note that you may experience a pretty rough headache the next day which is actually a good sign, that means your body is still rapidly releasing toxins from your body. Also, be sure to hyrdrate!
This is a great way to start a weight loss program!
Have fun! :o)
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Running The Race
After having my daughter, Trinity in 2007 I had put on 70 lbs. I knew I had to get the weight off fast so I began running. Let me tell you, it was NOT fun, especially at first. It hurt, it made me uncomfortable, if I went outside to run I was so embarrassed by what people would think about me, things jiggled that should not have jiggled. Oh! I hated hills! The force pushing against me and don’t let the wind start blowing hard which added extra force against me.
Hot days – ugh! Sweat and thirst, the sun beaming down made the situation no fun. I wanted to give up so many times but I knew the reward of being healthy and looking great was worth it.
In September of 2008 I accomplished my weight loss goal and wound up actually weighing 10 lbs less than my prepregnancy weight. It was an amazing accomplishment and I will never forget it. The daily sacrifices and hard work paid off.
This is similar to how our walk in life seems to be. Yes, there are days that are smooth sailing but a lot of times there are steep hills that we can’t go around and very uncomfortable moments. We can give up at any moment but our reward is so worth our sacrifices and hard work.
Today we are going to cover 4 hit points.
#1 Running from God –
It is true that we will back slide. Some will more than others. Our walk with Christ will be a one foot in, one foot out type of thing also known as straddling the fence so to say. We’ll walk around as if everything is fine and dandy but within we are running from God. We are so buried in our sin that we are ashamed to look up and face our Heavenly Father who literally wants to hold us. Instead we will run and hide.
When we run from God, we allow ourselves to sit on the throne in our lives. We can’t control circumstances and the things or people around us so we get frustrated. We may turn to our old sinful nature since we’re already hanging out in that vulnerable place. We get angry with our family and our friends. We start missing church, won’t pick up our bibles – to afraid to face the Truth.
Let me tell you this – if you are running from God – Stop it. That’s great that you showed up for Bible Study and I would hope that that means that you’re not running from God or you most likely wouldn’t be here but today you may not be running from Him but keep yourself in check for tomorrow. We all have sinful nature – that is life on this earth and always will be – learn to cast your care upon God and learn to say “I’m sorry, Lord.. DARN IT! I did it again. Please give me strength to try harder tomorrow”.
I remember when I was a little kid and I was the unruly kid … which I will always defend myself and say that I was not bad I was just misunderstood. I had a mind of my own, not to mention super courageous and creative… so, it’s not really a big deal if I took the keys to my dad’s spare car and drove it around the yard a few times reaching speeds of 20 miles per hour … I was experienced with go-carts, how much harder could this be? Well, I returned the car just as perfect as could be in its same spot in the drive way. I think I even lined the tire marks on the gravel up just perfect.
My dad usually got home around 5:45 – 6:00 at night and dusk had begun to settle – I was in my room and heard him ask my mom in his stern voice “Who the heck drove a car through our yard?” – Can you imagine the look on my face in my bedroom and the complete and utterly sense of panic that overcame my whole body? You know, that feeling that you get when you know you’re driving a little faster than you should and just happen to pass a cop?!?! That feeling! That sick to the stomach, OH MY GOODNESS, feeling.
I hid in my closet. I knew that the grand jury would begin the trial at any moment asking each of us one by one what happened and who did it – both of my brothers were interrogated and completely innocent – meanwhile I am hiding in the closet… scared to death… but the point that I didn’t have to face my father made me feel so much better about the situation but eventually he came looking for me and the more he asked around “Where is April” the more sick I felt. I knew I had to come out and face him. I came out as if I didn’t know he was home or asking for my presence. He asked me “Did you drive the car through the yard?” and I looked him dead on and said “ haha… a car?!!? No way… Jake (the kid from down the street) let me drive his go-cart around the yard.. That’s it” So not only did I hide, but when I came out to face my dad… I lied straight to him.
Now, my dad was not an idiot. He took my story and walked away to get washed up for dinner. I thought I was off the hook until after dinner he asked me again and I lied again trying to convince him and myself that I was telling the truth. He then looked at me and said “those tire marks are too far apart to be a go-cart. I am not stupid. You drove my car through the yard, didn’t you?!?!” To which I looked at him and saturated in tears said “yes sir”. He then asked me “Why did you lie to me!?!” to which I replied “I don’t know …. I didn’t want to get in trouble.” Well… I got in trouble and I got in a double dose of trouble for lying.
Is that story not a complete image of how we are when we run from our Heavenly Father? We do something bad – we hide – then eventually we have to face Him. We can choose to lie to Him but He is not stupid. He knows everything and sees everything. He sees in us what we choose not to believe about ourselves.
When we run from God we deny the Truth – and you cannot move on with your life until you have come to terms with the truth about things that you’ve done, things that you’re doing, or things that you are planning to do in your mind. He says “Cast your care upon me”. Don’t run from Him.
#2 Running TO God
Running to God just to give thanks or in time of need or just to have Him as our resting place is a beautiful thing! I envision Trinity when I pick her up from daycare. She is in her own little world but when she finally catches a glimpse of her mommy – she drops whatever she is doing (usually a puzzle of some sort) and she runs to me with the biggest smile on her face and completely plummets into my chest and wraps her arms around my neck in the tightest little grip. It’s a moment that only she and I share and she finds rest, relief, and happiness in me. She knows that I have come to take her to her resting place (home), that I have a secure place in the car to transport her, that there is a snack and a cup of juice waiting for her. She then KNOWS that she is going to get home and be fed dinner, given a warm bath, and cuddled before falling asleep.
We have to run to God. There is no clearer picture than the story I just mentioned. He is Jehovah Jireh – God our provider. When we run to Him, we take rest in Him. Matthew 6:33 says “But seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” Philippians 4:19 says “And my God will meet all your needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus.”
Run to God. When times are tough and someone has just set you over the edge – don’t run to your gossip friend – Run to God. I find myself wanting to rip people to shreds sometimes for the STUPID and selfish things that they do or say – but I know that if I take that load of venom to a friend … it is poison. Not only have I just placed the burden on them and involved them in my toxic behavior … I have not ran to God. I have once again, in my life, put Him second in line. Run to God with all needs, all frustrations, all things you don’t understand, and don’t forget to run to Him to just say thank you or I love you, sometimes you can just say – “God, I don’t want anything – I just want to be close with you right now”. Run to God.
#3 Running WITH God
For my teaching purposes – running WITH God is running hand in hand with Him to share the Good News. One of our main responsibilities is to share the good news of Jesus Christ. Romans 10:17 says “Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the Word of Christ.” Mark 16:15 “He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation”.”
I’m not as hard core as I use to be when I am running – but I know when I run I am physically and spiritually running with God. I invite Him to share that time with me. It’s like having a workout partner… no joke! You pick someone who can challenge you and push you a little at a time to make you better. Running with God is setting Him in our lives as our workout partner. He always shows up and shows up on time. I can picture Him in my fleshly brain – totally in workout gear, doing jumping jacks as I walk up slumped over and throw my workout bag to the ground. There He is – already getting His heart rate up and jamming out to Jesus Freak by DC Talk on His IPOD – looking at me like “let’s go!”
We may be relentless at first but we feel so awesome at the end of the run and we give thanks for such an unyielding partner to help us and hold us accountable through our funk.
#4 Running FOR God
Running FOR God is our everyday life. How we react to tough times. The words that we speak. 1 Corinthians 9:24-25 says “Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one get the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever.”
Note - strict training… not free flowing training … but strict training. Sacrifice, hard work. To continue running for God we have to be steadfast and persevere through our struggles. Running for God is no easy task. I remember my training for my weight loss journey. Limitations from the things that taste sooo good like French fries, cokes, chocolate cake and having to move when I was exhausted. Nothing says dedication more than getting up at 4:50 in the morning to run in the cool of the morning before the sun has fully risen. But can I tell you that those were the most precious moments between me and God. The smell of fresh, crisp air and the fog sometimes still in the distance, the quietness of the morning – before the rush of children needing to get to school and coffee stops before the big meetings at work. Just me and God and an occasional car driving past me. I remember topping the hill and seeing the sun easing up as a rabbit ran past me in terror because I startled him. Even in the sacrifice of waking up early to get my heart rate up – God met me there and His presence was fully known to me. God meets us in our tough spots just like he met me every morning for my daily, AM run.
We have to be careful in the way we carry ourselves as we hold Christ’s name. I had a guy at work the other day tell me about a woman in sales that was just recently let go – He said “She used her body to get all of her clients … but in certain instances she was quick to wear the “JC” hat” as he rolled his eyes. I’m not sure if the guy I work with is a believer but you could tell he had the same perception that a lot of people have about Christians. This is a quote that I heard on a CD – The theologian Karl Rahner put it this way “the number one cause of atheism is Christians. Those who proclaim God with their mouths and deny Him with their lifestyles is what an unbelieving world finds simply unbelievable.” How sobering is that? Amazing!
Sunday at church we had Shepherds Ministries come to visit us. Shepherds offer compassionate, Christian care for adults with developmental disabilities. There was a guy named Saul. Saul was a sweet soul who has fully memorized the New Testament and quotes scripture randomly. It’s so beautiful. Saul got up to tell a little bit about himself with the help of his mentor, Al. Saul told about how he came to Christ and that he loved to share the good news. He then sang a song. Now, Saul was no American Idol, his vocals very pitchy and out of tune – but it was the most beautiful song I had ever heard and I sat in my seat sobbing. I actually wanted to excuse myself and leave the room so that I could just fall down, face to the ground, and cry like a little kid. Not because I felt sorry for Saul but because I felt sorry for myself. We are so caught up in pointless things. Things that have no benefit to the Kingdom of God, yet we allow ourselves to stumble and get caught up with those things. Saul didn’t know of things like what I just explained… he truly lives to share the Good News. He has child like faith and could care less what anyone thinks of him. He sang that song with a heart of worship and it was beautiful! His carefree spirit was overwhelming to my spirit and I was instantly brought back down to a child state of mind and wanted to be more like Saul. He has impacted my life so much in just that meeting. We actually met up after service and exchanged addresses so that we can be pen pals. He had mentioned that he loved to write back and forth and receive letters in the mail and I am that same way. I’m all about an email but there is nothing like getting real mail in the mailbox. Romans 10:15 says “How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!” I can testify to that verse as Saul and his message were so beautiful and humbling to me. Notice the nouns in Romans 10:15 – “feet” and “news”. This all wraps back to running for God. . We need to be sure we are running FOR God and nothing else. Have you ever been walking and tripped and fell? I have … and I really hurt myself. I hurt my ankle, knee, elbow, and was carrying my child who I also could have hurt really bad but luckily didn’t. My point is – if it hurts that bad just walking and tripping – imagine how bad it will hurt to be running a full sprint and tripping. Ouch!! This is our lives when we’re running for something other than Truth. We will fall hard. I encourage all of us to Run.
Have some time of reflection tonight and in the following days over the four key points of this teaching.
Running From God – Hiding in shame
Running To God – Allow Him to comfort us
Running With God – God running with us as a coach who continuously pushes us. I love this quote “God loves you exactly where you are but refuses to leave you there.”
Running For God – The way we live our lives for Him. At church, home, school, work, grocery store, sitting in traffic, out with friends… Our actions and words – are they lining up?
I can promise you – you will not grow weary when running for the Truth.
In closing scriptures:
Isaiah 40:31 – But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
Philippians 3:12-14 (Paul speaking) - Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
1 Timothy 4:7-10 Have nothing to do with godless myths and old wives' tales; rather, train yourself to be godly. 8For physical training is of some value, but godliness has value for all things, holding promise for both the present life and the life to come. 9This is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance 10(and for this we labor and strive), that we have put our hope in the living God, who is the Savior of all men, and especially of those who believe.
2 Timothy 2:5 says “If anyone competes as an athlete, he does not receive the victor’s crown unless he competes according the rules.”
2 Timothy 4:6-8 For I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time has come for my departure. 7I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. 8Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day—and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing.
Acts 20:24 However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace.
God’s word tells us continuously to run the race – therefore Run For God in the life that you live.
Hot days – ugh! Sweat and thirst, the sun beaming down made the situation no fun. I wanted to give up so many times but I knew the reward of being healthy and looking great was worth it.
In September of 2008 I accomplished my weight loss goal and wound up actually weighing 10 lbs less than my prepregnancy weight. It was an amazing accomplishment and I will never forget it. The daily sacrifices and hard work paid off.
This is similar to how our walk in life seems to be. Yes, there are days that are smooth sailing but a lot of times there are steep hills that we can’t go around and very uncomfortable moments. We can give up at any moment but our reward is so worth our sacrifices and hard work.
Today we are going to cover 4 hit points.
#1 Running from God –
It is true that we will back slide. Some will more than others. Our walk with Christ will be a one foot in, one foot out type of thing also known as straddling the fence so to say. We’ll walk around as if everything is fine and dandy but within we are running from God. We are so buried in our sin that we are ashamed to look up and face our Heavenly Father who literally wants to hold us. Instead we will run and hide.
When we run from God, we allow ourselves to sit on the throne in our lives. We can’t control circumstances and the things or people around us so we get frustrated. We may turn to our old sinful nature since we’re already hanging out in that vulnerable place. We get angry with our family and our friends. We start missing church, won’t pick up our bibles – to afraid to face the Truth.
Let me tell you this – if you are running from God – Stop it. That’s great that you showed up for Bible Study and I would hope that that means that you’re not running from God or you most likely wouldn’t be here but today you may not be running from Him but keep yourself in check for tomorrow. We all have sinful nature – that is life on this earth and always will be – learn to cast your care upon God and learn to say “I’m sorry, Lord.. DARN IT! I did it again. Please give me strength to try harder tomorrow”.
I remember when I was a little kid and I was the unruly kid … which I will always defend myself and say that I was not bad I was just misunderstood. I had a mind of my own, not to mention super courageous and creative… so, it’s not really a big deal if I took the keys to my dad’s spare car and drove it around the yard a few times reaching speeds of 20 miles per hour … I was experienced with go-carts, how much harder could this be? Well, I returned the car just as perfect as could be in its same spot in the drive way. I think I even lined the tire marks on the gravel up just perfect.
My dad usually got home around 5:45 – 6:00 at night and dusk had begun to settle – I was in my room and heard him ask my mom in his stern voice “Who the heck drove a car through our yard?” – Can you imagine the look on my face in my bedroom and the complete and utterly sense of panic that overcame my whole body? You know, that feeling that you get when you know you’re driving a little faster than you should and just happen to pass a cop?!?! That feeling! That sick to the stomach, OH MY GOODNESS, feeling.
I hid in my closet. I knew that the grand jury would begin the trial at any moment asking each of us one by one what happened and who did it – both of my brothers were interrogated and completely innocent – meanwhile I am hiding in the closet… scared to death… but the point that I didn’t have to face my father made me feel so much better about the situation but eventually he came looking for me and the more he asked around “Where is April” the more sick I felt. I knew I had to come out and face him. I came out as if I didn’t know he was home or asking for my presence. He asked me “Did you drive the car through the yard?” and I looked him dead on and said “ haha… a car?!!? No way… Jake (the kid from down the street) let me drive his go-cart around the yard.. That’s it” So not only did I hide, but when I came out to face my dad… I lied straight to him.
Now, my dad was not an idiot. He took my story and walked away to get washed up for dinner. I thought I was off the hook until after dinner he asked me again and I lied again trying to convince him and myself that I was telling the truth. He then looked at me and said “those tire marks are too far apart to be a go-cart. I am not stupid. You drove my car through the yard, didn’t you?!?!” To which I looked at him and saturated in tears said “yes sir”. He then asked me “Why did you lie to me!?!” to which I replied “I don’t know …. I didn’t want to get in trouble.” Well… I got in trouble and I got in a double dose of trouble for lying.
Is that story not a complete image of how we are when we run from our Heavenly Father? We do something bad – we hide – then eventually we have to face Him. We can choose to lie to Him but He is not stupid. He knows everything and sees everything. He sees in us what we choose not to believe about ourselves.
When we run from God we deny the Truth – and you cannot move on with your life until you have come to terms with the truth about things that you’ve done, things that you’re doing, or things that you are planning to do in your mind. He says “Cast your care upon me”. Don’t run from Him.
#2 Running TO God
Running to God just to give thanks or in time of need or just to have Him as our resting place is a beautiful thing! I envision Trinity when I pick her up from daycare. She is in her own little world but when she finally catches a glimpse of her mommy – she drops whatever she is doing (usually a puzzle of some sort) and she runs to me with the biggest smile on her face and completely plummets into my chest and wraps her arms around my neck in the tightest little grip. It’s a moment that only she and I share and she finds rest, relief, and happiness in me. She knows that I have come to take her to her resting place (home), that I have a secure place in the car to transport her, that there is a snack and a cup of juice waiting for her. She then KNOWS that she is going to get home and be fed dinner, given a warm bath, and cuddled before falling asleep.
We have to run to God. There is no clearer picture than the story I just mentioned. He is Jehovah Jireh – God our provider. When we run to Him, we take rest in Him. Matthew 6:33 says “But seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” Philippians 4:19 says “And my God will meet all your needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus.”
Run to God. When times are tough and someone has just set you over the edge – don’t run to your gossip friend – Run to God. I find myself wanting to rip people to shreds sometimes for the STUPID and selfish things that they do or say – but I know that if I take that load of venom to a friend … it is poison. Not only have I just placed the burden on them and involved them in my toxic behavior … I have not ran to God. I have once again, in my life, put Him second in line. Run to God with all needs, all frustrations, all things you don’t understand, and don’t forget to run to Him to just say thank you or I love you, sometimes you can just say – “God, I don’t want anything – I just want to be close with you right now”. Run to God.
#3 Running WITH God
For my teaching purposes – running WITH God is running hand in hand with Him to share the Good News. One of our main responsibilities is to share the good news of Jesus Christ. Romans 10:17 says “Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the Word of Christ.” Mark 16:15 “He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation”.”
I’m not as hard core as I use to be when I am running – but I know when I run I am physically and spiritually running with God. I invite Him to share that time with me. It’s like having a workout partner… no joke! You pick someone who can challenge you and push you a little at a time to make you better. Running with God is setting Him in our lives as our workout partner. He always shows up and shows up on time. I can picture Him in my fleshly brain – totally in workout gear, doing jumping jacks as I walk up slumped over and throw my workout bag to the ground. There He is – already getting His heart rate up and jamming out to Jesus Freak by DC Talk on His IPOD – looking at me like “let’s go!”
We may be relentless at first but we feel so awesome at the end of the run and we give thanks for such an unyielding partner to help us and hold us accountable through our funk.
#4 Running FOR God
Running FOR God is our everyday life. How we react to tough times. The words that we speak. 1 Corinthians 9:24-25 says “Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one get the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever.”
Note - strict training… not free flowing training … but strict training. Sacrifice, hard work. To continue running for God we have to be steadfast and persevere through our struggles. Running for God is no easy task. I remember my training for my weight loss journey. Limitations from the things that taste sooo good like French fries, cokes, chocolate cake and having to move when I was exhausted. Nothing says dedication more than getting up at 4:50 in the morning to run in the cool of the morning before the sun has fully risen. But can I tell you that those were the most precious moments between me and God. The smell of fresh, crisp air and the fog sometimes still in the distance, the quietness of the morning – before the rush of children needing to get to school and coffee stops before the big meetings at work. Just me and God and an occasional car driving past me. I remember topping the hill and seeing the sun easing up as a rabbit ran past me in terror because I startled him. Even in the sacrifice of waking up early to get my heart rate up – God met me there and His presence was fully known to me. God meets us in our tough spots just like he met me every morning for my daily, AM run.
We have to be careful in the way we carry ourselves as we hold Christ’s name. I had a guy at work the other day tell me about a woman in sales that was just recently let go – He said “She used her body to get all of her clients … but in certain instances she was quick to wear the “JC” hat” as he rolled his eyes. I’m not sure if the guy I work with is a believer but you could tell he had the same perception that a lot of people have about Christians. This is a quote that I heard on a CD – The theologian Karl Rahner put it this way “the number one cause of atheism is Christians. Those who proclaim God with their mouths and deny Him with their lifestyles is what an unbelieving world finds simply unbelievable.” How sobering is that? Amazing!
Sunday at church we had Shepherds Ministries come to visit us. Shepherds offer compassionate, Christian care for adults with developmental disabilities. There was a guy named Saul. Saul was a sweet soul who has fully memorized the New Testament and quotes scripture randomly. It’s so beautiful. Saul got up to tell a little bit about himself with the help of his mentor, Al. Saul told about how he came to Christ and that he loved to share the good news. He then sang a song. Now, Saul was no American Idol, his vocals very pitchy and out of tune – but it was the most beautiful song I had ever heard and I sat in my seat sobbing. I actually wanted to excuse myself and leave the room so that I could just fall down, face to the ground, and cry like a little kid. Not because I felt sorry for Saul but because I felt sorry for myself. We are so caught up in pointless things. Things that have no benefit to the Kingdom of God, yet we allow ourselves to stumble and get caught up with those things. Saul didn’t know of things like what I just explained… he truly lives to share the Good News. He has child like faith and could care less what anyone thinks of him. He sang that song with a heart of worship and it was beautiful! His carefree spirit was overwhelming to my spirit and I was instantly brought back down to a child state of mind and wanted to be more like Saul. He has impacted my life so much in just that meeting. We actually met up after service and exchanged addresses so that we can be pen pals. He had mentioned that he loved to write back and forth and receive letters in the mail and I am that same way. I’m all about an email but there is nothing like getting real mail in the mailbox. Romans 10:15 says “How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!” I can testify to that verse as Saul and his message were so beautiful and humbling to me. Notice the nouns in Romans 10:15 – “feet” and “news”. This all wraps back to running for God. . We need to be sure we are running FOR God and nothing else. Have you ever been walking and tripped and fell? I have … and I really hurt myself. I hurt my ankle, knee, elbow, and was carrying my child who I also could have hurt really bad but luckily didn’t. My point is – if it hurts that bad just walking and tripping – imagine how bad it will hurt to be running a full sprint and tripping. Ouch!! This is our lives when we’re running for something other than Truth. We will fall hard. I encourage all of us to Run.
Have some time of reflection tonight and in the following days over the four key points of this teaching.
Running From God – Hiding in shame
Running To God – Allow Him to comfort us
Running With God – God running with us as a coach who continuously pushes us. I love this quote “God loves you exactly where you are but refuses to leave you there.”
Running For God – The way we live our lives for Him. At church, home, school, work, grocery store, sitting in traffic, out with friends… Our actions and words – are they lining up?
I can promise you – you will not grow weary when running for the Truth.
In closing scriptures:
Isaiah 40:31 – But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
Philippians 3:12-14 (Paul speaking) - Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
1 Timothy 4:7-10 Have nothing to do with godless myths and old wives' tales; rather, train yourself to be godly. 8For physical training is of some value, but godliness has value for all things, holding promise for both the present life and the life to come. 9This is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance 10(and for this we labor and strive), that we have put our hope in the living God, who is the Savior of all men, and especially of those who believe.
2 Timothy 2:5 says “If anyone competes as an athlete, he does not receive the victor’s crown unless he competes according the rules.”
2 Timothy 4:6-8 For I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time has come for my departure. 7I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. 8Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day—and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing.
Acts 20:24 However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace.
God’s word tells us continuously to run the race – therefore Run For God in the life that you live.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
FROM EVERLASTING TO EVERLASTING
"As for man, his days are like grass,
he flourishes like a flower of the field;
the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
But from everlasting to everlasting
the LORD's love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children's children-"
Psalm 103:15-17
Last week my husband, Tony, called me to tell me that his friend's (Starr) mom (Marie) had passed away. To my knowledge, Marie had been battling stage 4 cancer for a short amount of time. Marie, although I didn't know her very well, from what I did know of her, she was an amazing woman and an amazing mother and wife! She was a mother of three children and a grandmother of one precious baby girl! Marie lived her life for her family but she also loved the Lord with all her heart. I remember having conversations with her about God and His amazing goodness. Once again, Marie was an amazing woman! She cared about everyone else more than she ever cared about herself. She is a treasure that God put on this earth for a short amount of time to reflect His Glory... and the job was done well.
I remember crying for a moment... crying for the pain she had endured, crying for her family who will no longer have her around... but as I cried for their loss my heart began to give shouts of praises to The Most High and I felt overjoyed that Marie is now in Heaven! No more suffering and sickness - it's cliche' to say "just in a better place" but it's so much more than that!!! She is in an AMAZING place!!! A place that we cannot even begin to wrap our minds around. She has new life, a life that I long for and hope for each day.
As I have been reflecting on this world's loss of Marie and Heaven's gain, I have thought much about how we try to hold on to this life we have here like it is forever. This life on earth is not forever. Our life with Christ is forever. I believe that God has wired us to hold on to our lives on earth and "fight for our lives" because we have work to do here and if He didn't implant us with the fight to keep our lives, we would all be giving up and going to Glory at any and every opportunity. So we fight because that's how we are wired and we tend to fear death because it is unknown to us. Remember that short story about looking before you leap? It's in us to know what is about to happen but His Word says that we walk by faith and not by sight. "Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. We live by faith, not by sight. We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord. So we make it our goal to please him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it." 2 corinthians 5:6-9
We have to remember in our suffering times to stick close to God and to His Word. His Word is our manual for life. John 3:16 says it all!!! "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whoever shall believe in Him will not perish but have EVERLASTING life" That doesn't mean we get to walk around in the flesh for forever but that we get to be in Glory with our Father... which, if you are a believer our job here is to spread the Good News and work in the name of Jesus and then go home... to Paradise!
As Jesus was hanging on the cross He made it clear that Paradise was waiting as he spoke to the thief who in that instant believed that Jesus was the son of God "Jesus answered him, "I tell you the truth, today you will be with me in paradise." " Luke 23:43 Not tomorrow, not next week, not in five thousand years but TODAY! He knew the thief was on his way to death in that moment so Jesus told him "TODAY you will be with me in paradise". WOW!!!! If that doesn't make you excited, I don't know what will!
Philippians 1:21 tell us to live is Christ and to die is GAIN! So we need to be living as Christians... teaching, sharing, giving, doing!!! Because as we live we are Christ and when we die we GAIN!
I heard a statistic the other day that said that out of all the Christians only 15% are DOERS! Those who act... who get out and help and give their tithes to their churches, who pray fervently and are always looking for an opportunity to serve others. WOW! I can't site the statistic as I heard it on the radio and I'm not sure if it's true but... sometimes I watch Joel Osteen on TV and I see all these thousands upon thousands of Christians soaking up the Word, and then I watched a YouTube video of a Hillsong worship concert and thousands upon thousands of Christians in complete worship, then I look around at churches I have attended hundreds or even thousands of Christians ... but when you leave the church parking lot or the concert hall... where do they go!?!?!?!? I get so frustrated with this question - where are you!?!?! We need you out in the streets, at work, at the grocery store, at the movie theater, out for a couple of social drinks and delicious food... not just behind closed doors at church. This is real people!!! We have to stop playing around and get it together.
Death is always right around the corner because we don't belong to this world. We have to stop holding on to worldly things and live our lives for Christ. Touch others and share the good news so that they too can be called to Paradise.
I didn't even know Marie to the fullest and my heart was changed because of my few, short encounters with her. We have to be these types of people!
I was reading about Trusting God and how it's easy to say that we trust Him but have you ever tried to give Him your money? Ouch.. touchy huh? You may be thinking "who the heck do you think you are?!?!" I'm not condemning you, I'm simply asking. Have you ever tried to give Him your money? And not just a couple of dollars but really GIVE to where it's a little uncomfortable? Some people may skip over this part but it's very vital.
To trust God is to TRUST Him, not just in the things that make us feel all warm and fuzzy but in everything, including our wallets. Malachi 3:9-11 says "You are under a curse—the whole nation of you—because you are robbing me. Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it" God says test me in this and see if I don't over pour blessing into your life! Yet, we hold on to our money and spend it on things that we don't even need instead of building our faith stronger.
You want to learn to let go of this world.. give up some of your money! I promise you - with the right heart and trusting God, it will change your life. Money doesn't become a treasure to you anymore, it becomes a tool. The bible doesn't say that money is the root to all evil it says that the LOVE of money is the root to all evil. Where are you placing your love and trust in this life?
I am asking you, begging you - to get your mind off of these worldly things and fix your eyes on Jesus. What do you have to lose? 1 John 5:12 says "He who has the Son has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life"
Our lives are made to bring God glory. Are you glorifying Him? Are people meeting Jesus through you or are they being turned away? Are you the type of person who shoves Jesus down everyone's throats but your actions never back up your talk? Are you the person who is a servant at church, completely G-rated and friendly but when you leave you're an unrecognizable person who is too selfish to even open a door for a stranger?
Serious stuff-
Life is short. "As for man, his days are like grass,
he flourishes like a flower of the field;
the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
We have to leave something good behind.
I think that it's often in the loss of someone else that we find ourselves looking for answers. God is the answer. There is no other answer but Him.
We belong to Him and He loves us so much... beyond what we could ever imagine.
Romans 14:8
"If we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord."
Marie belonged to the Lord and is now vesting in His Glory! She suffered for a short time and now has moved on to her new home. Romans 8:18 "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."
2 Corinthians 5:1-5 says "Now we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked. For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. Now it is God who has made us for this very purpose and has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come."
Are you living a life that longs to be with your Heavenly Father? If not, then you don't know Him well enough. I encourage you to read His Word daily to find the answers that you are seeking in Him and find a bible based church where you can be filled up and then pour over to others.
Death is inevitable but we can't live in fear of it for ourselves or those around us. We have to live each day with a heart of gratitude and give thanks in all circumstances. We need to be doers, givers, pray-ERS, all for His Glory.
From everlasting to everlasting. Make it a glorious ride!
You have blessed this earth, Marie, and have brought Him glory! Good job!
Shine Bright!
April
he flourishes like a flower of the field;
the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
But from everlasting to everlasting
the LORD's love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children's children-"
Psalm 103:15-17
Last week my husband, Tony, called me to tell me that his friend's (Starr) mom (Marie) had passed away. To my knowledge, Marie had been battling stage 4 cancer for a short amount of time. Marie, although I didn't know her very well, from what I did know of her, she was an amazing woman and an amazing mother and wife! She was a mother of three children and a grandmother of one precious baby girl! Marie lived her life for her family but she also loved the Lord with all her heart. I remember having conversations with her about God and His amazing goodness. Once again, Marie was an amazing woman! She cared about everyone else more than she ever cared about herself. She is a treasure that God put on this earth for a short amount of time to reflect His Glory... and the job was done well.
I remember crying for a moment... crying for the pain she had endured, crying for her family who will no longer have her around... but as I cried for their loss my heart began to give shouts of praises to The Most High and I felt overjoyed that Marie is now in Heaven! No more suffering and sickness - it's cliche' to say "just in a better place" but it's so much more than that!!! She is in an AMAZING place!!! A place that we cannot even begin to wrap our minds around. She has new life, a life that I long for and hope for each day.
As I have been reflecting on this world's loss of Marie and Heaven's gain, I have thought much about how we try to hold on to this life we have here like it is forever. This life on earth is not forever. Our life with Christ is forever. I believe that God has wired us to hold on to our lives on earth and "fight for our lives" because we have work to do here and if He didn't implant us with the fight to keep our lives, we would all be giving up and going to Glory at any and every opportunity. So we fight because that's how we are wired and we tend to fear death because it is unknown to us. Remember that short story about looking before you leap? It's in us to know what is about to happen but His Word says that we walk by faith and not by sight. "Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. We live by faith, not by sight. We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord. So we make it our goal to please him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it." 2 corinthians 5:6-9
We have to remember in our suffering times to stick close to God and to His Word. His Word is our manual for life. John 3:16 says it all!!! "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whoever shall believe in Him will not perish but have EVERLASTING life" That doesn't mean we get to walk around in the flesh for forever but that we get to be in Glory with our Father... which, if you are a believer our job here is to spread the Good News and work in the name of Jesus and then go home... to Paradise!
As Jesus was hanging on the cross He made it clear that Paradise was waiting as he spoke to the thief who in that instant believed that Jesus was the son of God "Jesus answered him, "I tell you the truth, today you will be with me in paradise." " Luke 23:43 Not tomorrow, not next week, not in five thousand years but TODAY! He knew the thief was on his way to death in that moment so Jesus told him "TODAY you will be with me in paradise". WOW!!!! If that doesn't make you excited, I don't know what will!
Philippians 1:21 tell us to live is Christ and to die is GAIN! So we need to be living as Christians... teaching, sharing, giving, doing!!! Because as we live we are Christ and when we die we GAIN!
I heard a statistic the other day that said that out of all the Christians only 15% are DOERS! Those who act... who get out and help and give their tithes to their churches, who pray fervently and are always looking for an opportunity to serve others. WOW! I can't site the statistic as I heard it on the radio and I'm not sure if it's true but... sometimes I watch Joel Osteen on TV and I see all these thousands upon thousands of Christians soaking up the Word, and then I watched a YouTube video of a Hillsong worship concert and thousands upon thousands of Christians in complete worship, then I look around at churches I have attended hundreds or even thousands of Christians ... but when you leave the church parking lot or the concert hall... where do they go!?!?!?!? I get so frustrated with this question - where are you!?!?! We need you out in the streets, at work, at the grocery store, at the movie theater, out for a couple of social drinks and delicious food... not just behind closed doors at church. This is real people!!! We have to stop playing around and get it together.
Death is always right around the corner because we don't belong to this world. We have to stop holding on to worldly things and live our lives for Christ. Touch others and share the good news so that they too can be called to Paradise.
I didn't even know Marie to the fullest and my heart was changed because of my few, short encounters with her. We have to be these types of people!
I was reading about Trusting God and how it's easy to say that we trust Him but have you ever tried to give Him your money? Ouch.. touchy huh? You may be thinking "who the heck do you think you are?!?!" I'm not condemning you, I'm simply asking. Have you ever tried to give Him your money? And not just a couple of dollars but really GIVE to where it's a little uncomfortable? Some people may skip over this part but it's very vital.
To trust God is to TRUST Him, not just in the things that make us feel all warm and fuzzy but in everything, including our wallets. Malachi 3:9-11 says "You are under a curse—the whole nation of you—because you are robbing me. Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it" God says test me in this and see if I don't over pour blessing into your life! Yet, we hold on to our money and spend it on things that we don't even need instead of building our faith stronger.
You want to learn to let go of this world.. give up some of your money! I promise you - with the right heart and trusting God, it will change your life. Money doesn't become a treasure to you anymore, it becomes a tool. The bible doesn't say that money is the root to all evil it says that the LOVE of money is the root to all evil. Where are you placing your love and trust in this life?
I am asking you, begging you - to get your mind off of these worldly things and fix your eyes on Jesus. What do you have to lose? 1 John 5:12 says "He who has the Son has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life"
Our lives are made to bring God glory. Are you glorifying Him? Are people meeting Jesus through you or are they being turned away? Are you the type of person who shoves Jesus down everyone's throats but your actions never back up your talk? Are you the person who is a servant at church, completely G-rated and friendly but when you leave you're an unrecognizable person who is too selfish to even open a door for a stranger?
Serious stuff-
Life is short. "As for man, his days are like grass,
he flourishes like a flower of the field;
the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
We have to leave something good behind.
I think that it's often in the loss of someone else that we find ourselves looking for answers. God is the answer. There is no other answer but Him.
We belong to Him and He loves us so much... beyond what we could ever imagine.
Romans 14:8
"If we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord."
Marie belonged to the Lord and is now vesting in His Glory! She suffered for a short time and now has moved on to her new home. Romans 8:18 "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."
2 Corinthians 5:1-5 says "Now we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked. For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. Now it is God who has made us for this very purpose and has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come."
Are you living a life that longs to be with your Heavenly Father? If not, then you don't know Him well enough. I encourage you to read His Word daily to find the answers that you are seeking in Him and find a bible based church where you can be filled up and then pour over to others.
Death is inevitable but we can't live in fear of it for ourselves or those around us. We have to live each day with a heart of gratitude and give thanks in all circumstances. We need to be doers, givers, pray-ERS, all for His Glory.
From everlasting to everlasting. Make it a glorious ride!
You have blessed this earth, Marie, and have brought Him glory! Good job!
Shine Bright!
April
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Rambling from Bible Study Season 2 - Demolishing Strongholds
Thank you to Sara Poynter, Queenie Anderson, Jameriah Gaines, Carrie Mae Grimes, Melissa Hearring, Gina Frazier, and Natalie Demonbreun (Pumpkin) for attending the study this past Tuesday and helping bring a snack or drink or something to supply the kitchen with. I believe we had a great first teaching and I am looking forward to our next one. To those of you who couldn't attend we hope to see you next time and you missed out on some awesome cake! lol! Review - we went over strongholds in our lives and also briefly talked about asking ourselves the question "Who am I?" Moving forward in your walk with Christ and in fulfilling your destiny here on earth is more successful when you can demolish strongholds... things that are holding you back and chaining you down. The first step of treatment to a person with an addiction is to first admit that they have a problem. To do that, you have to be humble. I think we are too often caught up in what other people are doing wrong rather than taking the time to take an inward look at ourselves... Matthew 5:7 says: You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye....Meaning... take a look within before trying to clean up someone else's life. My challenge for each of you and myself is to dig deep and pray on things that are holding you back - bitterness, jealously, envy, deception, lies, anger, hostility, insecurities with your weight and image, selfishness, lust, gossip, alcohol, drugs, etc, etc... find that thing or things and mark them down somewhere - then reflect over them with "Why am I this way?" " What or who is causing this to rise up in my life?" Asking yourselves these questions can help you to see clearly if a person or thing causes ANGER to rise up in you or causes JEALOUSY to rise up in you, and asking WHY am I this way - can help you reflect back to maybe a childhood that has caused you to be the way you are - but the point is to try NOT to figure everything out but to dig deep and chew on it for a bit. Then take it to God. Talk with Him about it and ask Him to reveal more strongholds to you- He has already forgiven you- so go ahead and forgive yourself ... then take a step forward. In our study we learned that the basic definition of a Stronghold is something that is contrary to the Word of God and His Will for your life. The way to define sneaky strongholds is by staying in your Word. Read your bible... for those of you who have no clue what you're reading, I suggest that you get a New Living Translation or New International Version Bible and start in Matthew - NOTE** When you start out in Matthew it's going to list the genealogy starting with Adam and leading up to Jesus-- so don't be alarmed when you start reading and can't figure out what's going on or pronounce the names that are listed... haha.. just keep reading! It will start making sense once you get past that part. We have to know the God we serve and we have to know what we believe... it is so important for our lives and the challenges that test our faith on a daily basis. We also learned in our study that of course Satan is the ruler of this world and although he can set traps for us and temptations that pull us strongly... he CANNOT make us do anything. That is our own free will and we choose to take the opportunities that he places in front of us or we choose to walk away. So although he is to blame - we have to keep an eye on ourselves and take fault for our actions. You will know as you attend more studies and get to know me more that I often talk about The Inward Change... and am actually writing a book titled The Inward Change- it's an inward reflection of ourselves and making changes in ourselves so that we can then reflect God's light in dark places. I am praying peace over every one of you ladies and hope that you have had a great week and an even greater weekend. On a side note - just some encouragement to help the flood victims with your money, time, or non perishable items. I can't even imagine the devastation. If you want to get involved or donate check out http://www.wayfm.com/ for more information.
Stayed charged and keeping shining, April Poynter
Stayed charged and keeping shining, April Poynter
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Loneliness
Good morning!
Man, what a week it has been. I'm thinking it's Tuesday! LOL! My boss has kept me very busy this week.
Today's devotional about loneliness really strikes close to home for me. Tony and I just had a discussion yesterday about how we feel so misplaced all the time - like we are living in a world that we just don't fit in. The scripture says that this world is not our home and that is the main contributing factor as to why we don't feel like we belong...simply because we don't. But as Christians and in the "body" of Christ <-- the church - we should feel like we at least fit together.
I know for myself, I am a person who is constantly surrounded by people and events but still feel lonely often. Sometimes I am talking and the words are coming out but they're not forming in words what I'm feeling in my heart... but God totally knows where I'm coming from and has been my comforting Father in so many lonely times.
We have to ask ourselves this - am I feeling lonely because God wants my focus to be on Him? If so, give Him your focus - read your bible, pray, talk with him and ask for his guidance - He won't let you be lonely for long.
- am I feeling lonely because I'm drawing away from everyone who cares about me? - If so, check yourself. The Devil loves to isolate and fill your head with lies and strongholds that do nothing but push you into a hole. If you're hiding in a hole you can't get out and share the love of Christ.
- am I feeling lonely because I'm too scared to get involved? - If so, get involved! Always do what scares you! (if there will be a positive impact - what do you have to lose?) Faith without works is dead! Check out your church bulletin and see what's going on - then get into it!
If you're feeling lonely in a busy world - check out what's going on in your life. What are you feeding yourself? Just like when you eat really bad for a long time you start to feel horrible... but you know when you're eating healthy because you feel good. What are you watching, hearing, speaking? Do an inventory on the people in your "inner circle" - are they positive and productive? Do they fill you up or drain you? Some people that are closest to you are draining you of your life. It doesn't mean they are bad people - it just means that their motives are differant than yours and you need to get connected with people who are looking to share the love of Christ. If you say to yourself "hmmm... I don't have anyone in my life that I feel is negative or draining..." Then ask yourself this "Am I that person?" <-- Whoa! Shock... ! Sometimes it's just the reality check that we need.
Walking with Christ is not a Sunday thing. It's an every day thing. It's life. Nothing frustrates me more than to see people outside of church who walk with Christ - not live the Word of God on a regular basis. No one is perfect... we will all mess up over and over again.... we will slander one another... but the key is to try hard... try SUPER hard to live a life of love. I love the verse below where some of Jesus' followers thaught it was too hard to walk with Him and so they left him - then he asks His disciples are they going to leave too... read below:
James 6:60-68
On hearing it, many of his disciples said, "This is a hard teaching. Who can accept it?"
61Aware that his disciples were grumbling about this, Jesus said to them, "Does this offend you? 62What if you see the Son of Man ascend to where he was before! 63The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you are spirit[e] and they are life. 64Yet there are some of you who do not believe." For Jesus had known from the beginning which of them did not believe and who would betray him. 65He went on to say, "This is why I told you that no one can come to me unless the Father has enabled him."
66From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him.
67"You do not want to leave too, do you?" Jesus asked the Twelve.
68Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. 69We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God."
I love that!!! "To whom shall we go" or "where else can we go" God has the words of eternal life! Why would you want to go anywhere else? The things of this world are TEMPORARY highs!
Ask God to help reveal "Who am I?" Then check your life. Check your friends, check your text messages, check your HOME.... read your BFF's tweets and Facebook Status' .... are they Kingdom thinkers or worldy thinkers? I can guarantee you that your loneliness will subside once you seek God's direction and do an inventory on your inner circle.
Sorry guys... totally in preacher mode this morning! lol! I'm drugged up on Tylenol Sinus and coffee! lol! I just hate that we sit around waiting for God to deliver... like He's some sort of vending machine - that we just push a button - B1 - and plop! Our treat falls out... He does not work this way. He's all into blessing us and He loves and forgives us regardless! He's not a "performance based" loving Father - He loves just because! We have to start doing and loneliness has no ground to stand on.
*deep breath*
Tony and I are working on creating a ministry called The Brown Bag Special - we will make sack lunches for the homeless in down town Nashville and deliver to them. Not sure of all the details yet but we're thinking a couple of sandwiches, some veggies, fruit, chips, sweet treat, a soda and water, and a scripture card. We are praying for God's direction with this.
We are tired of being bystanders.
Proverbs 14:31 (New International Version)
31 He who oppresses the poor shows contempt for their Maker,
but whoever is kind to the needy honors God.
Proverbs 28:27 (New International Version)
27 He who gives to the poor will lack nothing,
but he who closes his eyes to them receives many curses.
1 Samuel 2:8 (New International Version)
8 He raises the poor from the dust
and lifts the needy from the ash heap;
he seats them with princes
and has them inherit a throne of honor.
"For the foundations of the earth are the LORD's;
upon them he has set the world.
If you think you would be interested in this ministry please let me know.
Have a great day today!
Love,
April
Man, what a week it has been. I'm thinking it's Tuesday! LOL! My boss has kept me very busy this week.
Today's devotional about loneliness really strikes close to home for me. Tony and I just had a discussion yesterday about how we feel so misplaced all the time - like we are living in a world that we just don't fit in. The scripture says that this world is not our home and that is the main contributing factor as to why we don't feel like we belong...simply because we don't. But as Christians and in the "body" of Christ <-- the church - we should feel like we at least fit together.
I know for myself, I am a person who is constantly surrounded by people and events but still feel lonely often. Sometimes I am talking and the words are coming out but they're not forming in words what I'm feeling in my heart... but God totally knows where I'm coming from and has been my comforting Father in so many lonely times.
We have to ask ourselves this - am I feeling lonely because God wants my focus to be on Him? If so, give Him your focus - read your bible, pray, talk with him and ask for his guidance - He won't let you be lonely for long.
- am I feeling lonely because I'm drawing away from everyone who cares about me? - If so, check yourself. The Devil loves to isolate and fill your head with lies and strongholds that do nothing but push you into a hole. If you're hiding in a hole you can't get out and share the love of Christ.
- am I feeling lonely because I'm too scared to get involved? - If so, get involved! Always do what scares you! (if there will be a positive impact - what do you have to lose?) Faith without works is dead! Check out your church bulletin and see what's going on - then get into it!
If you're feeling lonely in a busy world - check out what's going on in your life. What are you feeding yourself? Just like when you eat really bad for a long time you start to feel horrible... but you know when you're eating healthy because you feel good. What are you watching, hearing, speaking? Do an inventory on the people in your "inner circle" - are they positive and productive? Do they fill you up or drain you? Some people that are closest to you are draining you of your life. It doesn't mean they are bad people - it just means that their motives are differant than yours and you need to get connected with people who are looking to share the love of Christ. If you say to yourself "hmmm... I don't have anyone in my life that I feel is negative or draining..." Then ask yourself this "Am I that person?" <-- Whoa! Shock... ! Sometimes it's just the reality check that we need.
Walking with Christ is not a Sunday thing. It's an every day thing. It's life. Nothing frustrates me more than to see people outside of church who walk with Christ - not live the Word of God on a regular basis. No one is perfect... we will all mess up over and over again.... we will slander one another... but the key is to try hard... try SUPER hard to live a life of love. I love the verse below where some of Jesus' followers thaught it was too hard to walk with Him and so they left him - then he asks His disciples are they going to leave too... read below:
James 6:60-68
On hearing it, many of his disciples said, "This is a hard teaching. Who can accept it?"
61Aware that his disciples were grumbling about this, Jesus said to them, "Does this offend you? 62What if you see the Son of Man ascend to where he was before! 63The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you are spirit[e] and they are life. 64Yet there are some of you who do not believe." For Jesus had known from the beginning which of them did not believe and who would betray him. 65He went on to say, "This is why I told you that no one can come to me unless the Father has enabled him."
66From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him.
67"You do not want to leave too, do you?" Jesus asked the Twelve.
68Simon Peter answered him, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. 69We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God."
I love that!!! "To whom shall we go" or "where else can we go" God has the words of eternal life! Why would you want to go anywhere else? The things of this world are TEMPORARY highs!
Ask God to help reveal "Who am I?" Then check your life. Check your friends, check your text messages, check your HOME.... read your BFF's tweets and Facebook Status' .... are they Kingdom thinkers or worldy thinkers? I can guarantee you that your loneliness will subside once you seek God's direction and do an inventory on your inner circle.
Sorry guys... totally in preacher mode this morning! lol! I'm drugged up on Tylenol Sinus and coffee! lol! I just hate that we sit around waiting for God to deliver... like He's some sort of vending machine - that we just push a button - B1 - and plop! Our treat falls out... He does not work this way. He's all into blessing us and He loves and forgives us regardless! He's not a "performance based" loving Father - He loves just because! We have to start doing and loneliness has no ground to stand on.
*deep breath*
Tony and I are working on creating a ministry called The Brown Bag Special - we will make sack lunches for the homeless in down town Nashville and deliver to them. Not sure of all the details yet but we're thinking a couple of sandwiches, some veggies, fruit, chips, sweet treat, a soda and water, and a scripture card. We are praying for God's direction with this.
We are tired of being bystanders.
Proverbs 14:31 (New International Version)
31 He who oppresses the poor shows contempt for their Maker,
but whoever is kind to the needy honors God.
Proverbs 28:27 (New International Version)
27 He who gives to the poor will lack nothing,
but he who closes his eyes to them receives many curses.
1 Samuel 2:8 (New International Version)
8 He raises the poor from the dust
and lifts the needy from the ash heap;
he seats them with princes
and has them inherit a throne of honor.
"For the foundations of the earth are the LORD's;
upon them he has set the world.
If you think you would be interested in this ministry please let me know.
Have a great day today!
Love,
April
Monday, April 12, 2010
Kindness to ALL
Happy Monday!!!
Kindness to all. This is a tough one.... I can honestly say this is something that I have struggled with for quite some time now. It seems that everywhere we go there will always be "someone" who really tests your spirit. What we need to remember - very graphically, Jesus hanging on a cross wounded and bleeding and asking God to forgive the people who put Him there.
Luke 23:34 "Father forgive them for they do not know what they are doing".
I would say that is kindness... that is ultimate kindess.
We are to love God and love each other. Today - I challenge you and myself to be genuinely kind to someone who is a thorn in your side. It will only take a second. Then with that said - I challenge you to be kind or do something nice for someone very dear to you. It's easy to forget about the people we care about most because we expect them to already know we care about them. Remember the best way to share the love of Christ is in action - once you have their attention then they may open up to hear the Word.
Make it a great day!
April
Kindness to all. This is a tough one.... I can honestly say this is something that I have struggled with for quite some time now. It seems that everywhere we go there will always be "someone" who really tests your spirit. What we need to remember - very graphically, Jesus hanging on a cross wounded and bleeding and asking God to forgive the people who put Him there.
Luke 23:34 "Father forgive them for they do not know what they are doing".
I would say that is kindness... that is ultimate kindess.
We are to love God and love each other. Today - I challenge you and myself to be genuinely kind to someone who is a thorn in your side. It will only take a second. Then with that said - I challenge you to be kind or do something nice for someone very dear to you. It's easy to forget about the people we care about most because we expect them to already know we care about them. Remember the best way to share the love of Christ is in action - once you have their attention then they may open up to hear the Word.
Make it a great day!
April
Friday, April 9, 2010
Happy Friday!
Justice is something that I had to learn the hard way. I use to take things into my own hands all the time and I always felt the need to defend myself against others. In 2005 I rededicated my life to Jesus and started walking in a relationship with Him. Along that journey there are numerous times where I could hear the voice of God say “Be still! This is not your battle- you have other work to do”. I ignored His voice for some time because I didn’t get it. I had always fought my own battles. When someone would say something about me or do something to me I would get so angry. I felt like I was about to explode! But I learned to hit my knees literally or go to a quiet spot (sometimes a bathroom stall to get away)- and pray, pray, pray until the fire was out of me. I had to learn to defuse and give it to God.
God does not want us to waste our time and energy on crap! “You have other work to do”. God is our righteous defender!
The other day I was reading in the book of Acts about Peter and the other apostles teaching the word of God. The high priest and his associates were filled with jealousy and they had the apostles arrested.
Read below this is from Acts 5:
27Having brought the apostles, they made them appear before the Sanhedrin to be questioned by the high priest. 28"We gave you strict orders not to teach in this name," he said. "Yet you have filled Jerusalem with your teaching and are determined to make us guilty of this man's blood."
29Peter and the other apostles replied: "We must obey God rather than men! 30The God of our fathers raised Jesus from the dead—whom you had killed by hanging him on a tree. 31God exalted him to his own right hand as Prince and Savior that he might give repentance and forgiveness of sins to Israel. 32We are witnesses of these things, and so is the Holy Spirit, whom God has given to those who obey him."
Now check this out:
33When they heard this, they were furious and wanted to put them to death. 34But a Pharisee named Gamaliel, a teacher of the law, who was honored by all the people, stood up in the Sanhedrin and ordered that the men be put outside for a little while. 35Then he addressed them: "Men of Israel, consider carefully what you intend to do to these men. 36Some time ago Theudas appeared, claiming to be somebody, and about four hundred men rallied to him. He was killed, all his followers were dispersed, and it all came to nothing. 37After him, Judas the Galilean appeared in the days of the census and led a band of people in revolt. He too was killed, and all his followers were scattered. 38Therefore, in the present case I advise you: Leave these men alone! Let them go! For if their purpose or activity is of human origin, it will fail. 39But if it is from God, you will not be able to stop these men; you will only find yourselves fighting against God."
If someone is trying to fight against you and you are trying your hardest to live in obedience to God – they are not fighting against you, they are fighting against God . How awesome is that?!?! Don’t play their games and don’t fight a battle that’s not for you to fight.
Today – lift up and burdens you are carrying and any fights you are fighting – “God, here you go. It’s all yours. I do not have the energy to fight this battle on my own and you are right – I have other work to do. The devil’s plot is to steal, kill, and destroy and he never takes a day off. He will use anyone and/or anything to make me lose my focus on kingdom things and act out of line. Thank you for Your mercy over and over again. I release these things over to you now and am walking away and not looking back.”
Stand firm and share the love!
Have a great weekend!
A
Justice is something that I had to learn the hard way. I use to take things into my own hands all the time and I always felt the need to defend myself against others. In 2005 I rededicated my life to Jesus and started walking in a relationship with Him. Along that journey there are numerous times where I could hear the voice of God say “Be still! This is not your battle- you have other work to do”. I ignored His voice for some time because I didn’t get it. I had always fought my own battles. When someone would say something about me or do something to me I would get so angry. I felt like I was about to explode! But I learned to hit my knees literally or go to a quiet spot (sometimes a bathroom stall to get away)- and pray, pray, pray until the fire was out of me. I had to learn to defuse and give it to God.
God does not want us to waste our time and energy on crap! “You have other work to do”. God is our righteous defender!
The other day I was reading in the book of Acts about Peter and the other apostles teaching the word of God. The high priest and his associates were filled with jealousy and they had the apostles arrested.
Read below this is from Acts 5:
27Having brought the apostles, they made them appear before the Sanhedrin to be questioned by the high priest. 28"We gave you strict orders not to teach in this name," he said. "Yet you have filled Jerusalem with your teaching and are determined to make us guilty of this man's blood."
29Peter and the other apostles replied: "We must obey God rather than men! 30The God of our fathers raised Jesus from the dead—whom you had killed by hanging him on a tree. 31God exalted him to his own right hand as Prince and Savior that he might give repentance and forgiveness of sins to Israel. 32We are witnesses of these things, and so is the Holy Spirit, whom God has given to those who obey him."
Now check this out:
33When they heard this, they were furious and wanted to put them to death. 34But a Pharisee named Gamaliel, a teacher of the law, who was honored by all the people, stood up in the Sanhedrin and ordered that the men be put outside for a little while. 35Then he addressed them: "Men of Israel, consider carefully what you intend to do to these men. 36Some time ago Theudas appeared, claiming to be somebody, and about four hundred men rallied to him. He was killed, all his followers were dispersed, and it all came to nothing. 37After him, Judas the Galilean appeared in the days of the census and led a band of people in revolt. He too was killed, and all his followers were scattered. 38Therefore, in the present case I advise you: Leave these men alone! Let them go! For if their purpose or activity is of human origin, it will fail. 39But if it is from God, you will not be able to stop these men; you will only find yourselves fighting against God."
If someone is trying to fight against you and you are trying your hardest to live in obedience to God – they are not fighting against you, they are fighting against God . How awesome is that?!?! Don’t play their games and don’t fight a battle that’s not for you to fight.
Today – lift up and burdens you are carrying and any fights you are fighting – “God, here you go. It’s all yours. I do not have the energy to fight this battle on my own and you are right – I have other work to do. The devil’s plot is to steal, kill, and destroy and he never takes a day off. He will use anyone and/or anything to make me lose my focus on kingdom things and act out of line. Thank you for Your mercy over and over again. I release these things over to you now and am walking away and not looking back.”
Stand firm and share the love!
Have a great weekend!
A
Thursday, April 8, 2010
INTEGRITY
in•teg•ri•ty
–noun
1.
adherence to moral and ethical principles; soundness of moral character; honesty.
Good morning!
Testing of the heart…. Hmmm…. Interesting huh? Can you think of times or are you going through a time where your heart is being tested? His Word says that our hearts will be tested. Check out some supporting scripture:
Psalm 26:2-3 (New International Version)
2 Test me, O LORD, and try me,
examine my heart and my mind;
3 for your love is ever before me,
and I walk continually in your truth.
Jeremiah 11:20 (New International Version)
20 But, O LORD Almighty, you who judge righteously
and test the heart and mind,
let me see your vengeance upon them,
for to you I have committed my cause.
1 Thessalonians 2:4 (New International Version)
4On the contrary, we speak as men approved by God to be entrusted with the gospel. We are not trying to please men but God, who tests our hearts.
James 1:2-3 (New International Version)
Trials and Temptations
2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
James 1:12 (New International Version)
12Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
We have to remember that God knows everything. I know there have been times in my life where I feel like I can just not speak to God about that “thing” and it will be okay but what happens is I shut down. I go into complete denial, harvesting a burden that I don’t have to harvest.
Our task for today is to do an inventory on our hearts. Be honest with yourself (me too) and say “Lord, I have sinned. I have ____________ your confession __ and I no longer want to follow that path or make excuses for why it’s okay for me to continue _________ That thing ___. Please lend me Your guidance as I walk away from bondage in this sin. I know now that my heart is being tested and I am looking to You for strength. Hold me accountable.”
Be free!
Love,
April
–noun
1.
adherence to moral and ethical principles; soundness of moral character; honesty.
Good morning!
Testing of the heart…. Hmmm…. Interesting huh? Can you think of times or are you going through a time where your heart is being tested? His Word says that our hearts will be tested. Check out some supporting scripture:
Psalm 26:2-3 (New International Version)
2 Test me, O LORD, and try me,
examine my heart and my mind;
3 for your love is ever before me,
and I walk continually in your truth.
Jeremiah 11:20 (New International Version)
20 But, O LORD Almighty, you who judge righteously
and test the heart and mind,
let me see your vengeance upon them,
for to you I have committed my cause.
1 Thessalonians 2:4 (New International Version)
4On the contrary, we speak as men approved by God to be entrusted with the gospel. We are not trying to please men but God, who tests our hearts.
James 1:2-3 (New International Version)
Trials and Temptations
2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.
James 1:12 (New International Version)
12Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
We have to remember that God knows everything. I know there have been times in my life where I feel like I can just not speak to God about that “thing” and it will be okay but what happens is I shut down. I go into complete denial, harvesting a burden that I don’t have to harvest.
Our task for today is to do an inventory on our hearts. Be honest with yourself (me too) and say “Lord, I have sinned. I have ____________ your confession __ and I no longer want to follow that path or make excuses for why it’s okay for me to continue _________ That thing ___. Please lend me Your guidance as I walk away from bondage in this sin. I know now that my heart is being tested and I am looking to You for strength. Hold me accountable.”
Be free!
Love,
April
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Happiness and Humility
Galatians 2:20 (New International Version)
20I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
Good morning!
It’s Wednesday already!
This morning on my drive into work I was thinking about happiness. What defines happiness? What is it that we cling to in our lives that we think will make us happy? Bigger question – if we were to receive the thing/things that we think would make us happy – for how long would we be happy?
Some of us think that if we had more money it would make us happy. If our husband or wife would tweak their actions a little bit then we would be happy. If we had a new job we would be happy.
These are all temporary highs. Say you were to receive a HUGE financial blessing but you don’t have the knowledge of budgeting money – you receive the money and in no time you spend it all… every last dime and have hardly anything to show. Your happiness went right out the window with the money.
You husband or wife does tweak their actions – but then that’s not good enough either. Once that issue is out of the way you pick out another issue that needs changing.
You receive the new job but you work with someone who is way worse than your old boss and you’re too weak to spiritually battle through your day.
All that to say – be happy where you are. God has you exactly where you need to be right now or else you would not be there.
Release any burden that you are carrying today – give it to God. He can handle it much better than we ever could. Jesus tells us that His yolk is easy and burden is light.
Read this small article that I found at bibletruths.net about happiness – very interesting:
How the Bible Pronounces “happy”
Those who fear the Lord are happy.
Happy are those who keep God’s laws.
Happy are those who have children.
Happy are those who do not condemn self.
Happy are those who trust in the Lord.
Happy are those who require wisdom.
“Our English word "happy" is simply defined as, "Fortunate or lucky…. cheerful…contented…characterized by or indicative of pleasure…." (Random House College Dictionary). The biblical presentation of "happy" is more substantive. For instance, the Bible does not present happiness as an experience that just happens because of luck or some shallow euphoric state of mind. One, according to the Bible, can be happy while being corrected by God, suffering for the sake of righteousness, and being reproached for the name of Christ.”
Is this not great news?? One can be happy while being kicked in the dirt! If any of you attended our bible study last year – you may remember the teaching that I did on Paul’s happiness (The book of Philippians). The book of Philippians continuously talks about being happy. So, here Paul is – in prison… persecuted and all he can talk about is how flippin’ happy he is! Are you serious!?!?! I want to be like that. I want to have such faith that is unshakeable. The more you share the Good News the harder this world is going to come down upon you – which is why you don’t see or hear a lot of people sharing. Even people who show up to church every Sunday – you don’t see them (and even I’m guilty at times) sharing the Word of God by words and actions outside of church.
Have you ever heard the song by Casting Crowns called “If We Are The Body”? Check out these lyrics -
But if we are the body
Why aren't His arms reaching?
Why aren't His hands healing?
Why aren't His words teaching?
And if we are the body
Why aren't His feet going?
Why is His love not showing them there is a way?
There is a way
Last night in my alone time with the Lord – I pulled my car to the darkest spot in our parking lot, I put a blanket over the trunk of my car and I laid there looking up into the stars. Realizing how small I am. How my God is the Beginning and the End, Alpha and Omega, Bright Morning Star, Bread of Life, Consuming Fire, Creator, The Great I Am, Prince of Peace, Living Water, Lord of All! He is everything. I am nothing and can do nothing without Him. Do you ever feel like your life is all over the place? Like you have no clue which direction you’re going and everything looks all cool on the outside but in the inside you feel like you’re going crazy!? You can’t explain it even if someone asks…. Whenever I feel like that, I have to check where I am placing God in my life and EVERY SINGLE TIME - I have moved Him out of the pilot seat and stuck Him in the co-pilot seat. I can’t fly a plane but He can. Last night I realized that He and I need to trade seats or my plane is going to crash.
Our human nature…. *sigh* …. We too often are so puffed up. More focused on ME, I, ME, MYSELF, ME, I, …. Rather than HIM and others. Our job is to love God and love each other. A good friend of mine told me yesterday:
“Getting equipped to minister to people and knowing God loves you and has a calling on your life are important. We are called to love God and love people. If everyone would do that to the best of their ability, we could really make a radical impact on the world.”
Those words are words to live by.
So – anyway …. I don’t think my Everyday Blessing emails are ever this long… haha! I had a lot on my heart.
I just want to encourage you today to be happy where you are, be humble, and exalt Him. Make sure He is flying the plane and not you. Grow deeper and branch out in His name. If anyone of you wants to grow deeper but doesn’t know how – please email me and we’ll talk about it. The greatest thing you can ever do is not only believe in Christ but to walk with Him daily. So many people go their whole lives and never experience the walking relationship with Jesus Christ. It goes so much deeper than just going to church on Sunday and saying your nightly prayers. Life doesn’t have to be this hard….we’re on the winning team! As Pastor Steve would say “I’ve read the end of the book and WE WIN!!!”
Love you all so deeply,
April
20I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
Good morning!
It’s Wednesday already!
This morning on my drive into work I was thinking about happiness. What defines happiness? What is it that we cling to in our lives that we think will make us happy? Bigger question – if we were to receive the thing/things that we think would make us happy – for how long would we be happy?
Some of us think that if we had more money it would make us happy. If our husband or wife would tweak their actions a little bit then we would be happy. If we had a new job we would be happy.
These are all temporary highs. Say you were to receive a HUGE financial blessing but you don’t have the knowledge of budgeting money – you receive the money and in no time you spend it all… every last dime and have hardly anything to show. Your happiness went right out the window with the money.
You husband or wife does tweak their actions – but then that’s not good enough either. Once that issue is out of the way you pick out another issue that needs changing.
You receive the new job but you work with someone who is way worse than your old boss and you’re too weak to spiritually battle through your day.
All that to say – be happy where you are. God has you exactly where you need to be right now or else you would not be there.
Release any burden that you are carrying today – give it to God. He can handle it much better than we ever could. Jesus tells us that His yolk is easy and burden is light.
Read this small article that I found at bibletruths.net about happiness – very interesting:
How the Bible Pronounces “happy”
Those who fear the Lord are happy.
Happy are those who keep God’s laws.
Happy are those who have children.
Happy are those who do not condemn self.
Happy are those who trust in the Lord.
Happy are those who require wisdom.
“Our English word "happy" is simply defined as, "Fortunate or lucky…. cheerful…contented…characterized by or indicative of pleasure…." (Random House College Dictionary). The biblical presentation of "happy" is more substantive. For instance, the Bible does not present happiness as an experience that just happens because of luck or some shallow euphoric state of mind. One, according to the Bible, can be happy while being corrected by God, suffering for the sake of righteousness, and being reproached for the name of Christ.”
Is this not great news?? One can be happy while being kicked in the dirt! If any of you attended our bible study last year – you may remember the teaching that I did on Paul’s happiness (The book of Philippians). The book of Philippians continuously talks about being happy. So, here Paul is – in prison… persecuted and all he can talk about is how flippin’ happy he is! Are you serious!?!?! I want to be like that. I want to have such faith that is unshakeable. The more you share the Good News the harder this world is going to come down upon you – which is why you don’t see or hear a lot of people sharing. Even people who show up to church every Sunday – you don’t see them (and even I’m guilty at times) sharing the Word of God by words and actions outside of church.
Have you ever heard the song by Casting Crowns called “If We Are The Body”? Check out these lyrics -
But if we are the body
Why aren't His arms reaching?
Why aren't His hands healing?
Why aren't His words teaching?
And if we are the body
Why aren't His feet going?
Why is His love not showing them there is a way?
There is a way
Last night in my alone time with the Lord – I pulled my car to the darkest spot in our parking lot, I put a blanket over the trunk of my car and I laid there looking up into the stars. Realizing how small I am. How my God is the Beginning and the End, Alpha and Omega, Bright Morning Star, Bread of Life, Consuming Fire, Creator, The Great I Am, Prince of Peace, Living Water, Lord of All! He is everything. I am nothing and can do nothing without Him. Do you ever feel like your life is all over the place? Like you have no clue which direction you’re going and everything looks all cool on the outside but in the inside you feel like you’re going crazy!? You can’t explain it even if someone asks…. Whenever I feel like that, I have to check where I am placing God in my life and EVERY SINGLE TIME - I have moved Him out of the pilot seat and stuck Him in the co-pilot seat. I can’t fly a plane but He can. Last night I realized that He and I need to trade seats or my plane is going to crash.
Our human nature…. *sigh* …. We too often are so puffed up. More focused on ME, I, ME, MYSELF, ME, I, …. Rather than HIM and others. Our job is to love God and love each other. A good friend of mine told me yesterday:
“Getting equipped to minister to people and knowing God loves you and has a calling on your life are important. We are called to love God and love people. If everyone would do that to the best of their ability, we could really make a radical impact on the world.”
Those words are words to live by.
So – anyway …. I don’t think my Everyday Blessing emails are ever this long… haha! I had a lot on my heart.
I just want to encourage you today to be happy where you are, be humble, and exalt Him. Make sure He is flying the plane and not you. Grow deeper and branch out in His name. If anyone of you wants to grow deeper but doesn’t know how – please email me and we’ll talk about it. The greatest thing you can ever do is not only believe in Christ but to walk with Him daily. So many people go their whole lives and never experience the walking relationship with Jesus Christ. It goes so much deeper than just going to church on Sunday and saying your nightly prayers. Life doesn’t have to be this hard….we’re on the winning team! As Pastor Steve would say “I’ve read the end of the book and WE WIN!!!”
Love you all so deeply,
April
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
A DISTANT HEART
Good morning friends!
Well, it's a beautiful day today. Actually the past few days have been remarkable. I love sunny days with a breeze before the humidity takes off and ruins everything. lol!
I love summer nights when the stars are shining and the wind is blowing through the trees. I feel God's presence right there in front of me on those nights. I feel as if he is embracing me and speaking to my heart, comforting me and reassuring me of any doubts. I love it so much that I will sleep on the couch so that I can open the balcony door and let the breeze blow in while I sleep. Amazing.
Do you ever have those times where your heart feels distant? I think there are times where you can be so on fire for the Lord and He is there!!! .... and then out of nowhere it goes away. I hate that. To me, it's kind of a testing period to where God draws back and we are to continue to draw into Him although we're not feeling/seeing any immediate response.
For the past month (since I've started my new job) I have felt a distant heart from my God. I hate it that my work life is great and then I find myself not constantly speaking with God throughout the day. The good thing - I realize it. God has answered my prayers for a peaceful job- and boy did He deliver! This job is amazing! But even with that said, my praises should NEVER find end. If anything- I should be leaning into Him more.
Please say a prayer for my distant heart. Also, Tony and I are still on the journey to finding a church home - so keep that in your prayers as well. It's very frustrating not being planted in a church home and we've been church goers for the past 5 years! I am so ready to sing for the Lord again. I have not been actively singing for the past 6 years or so - and I love to worship with music. I pray for God's direction to a church home that will allow me the opportunity to worship instead of not allowing any "change" with their worship team.
Also - I've been speaking with a guy that I work with about doing some music for him. He and a friend moved to Tennessee from Florida as their hearts were called to come here and start making worship cd's to give out as ministry to people who may not feel comfortable to walk into a church- this way they can listen to one of the cd's and HOPEFULLY have a heart transformation- if just ONE person gives their life to Jesus... it would ALL be worth it. I am REALLY excited to be apart of the project.
I was talking to Tony the other day and stating - "wouldn't it be such a waste to die today and never have done anything to further the Kingdom?" I know that I have shared the Good News but I want to DO something! I've been looking at some charities to get involved in and hope to help with them. Graceworks looks to be AMAZING! You can find charities to contribute your time and/or money to at www.givingmatters.com
A new day has arrived and His mercy is anew. Thank You for Your Mercy, Heavenly Father. May my heart be distant only for a short while.
"Oh no, You never let go - through the calm and through the storm. Oh no, You never let go - with every high and every low- Oh no, You never let go - No, You never let go of me."
Not of this world,
April Poynter
Well, it's a beautiful day today. Actually the past few days have been remarkable. I love sunny days with a breeze before the humidity takes off and ruins everything. lol!
I love summer nights when the stars are shining and the wind is blowing through the trees. I feel God's presence right there in front of me on those nights. I feel as if he is embracing me and speaking to my heart, comforting me and reassuring me of any doubts. I love it so much that I will sleep on the couch so that I can open the balcony door and let the breeze blow in while I sleep. Amazing.
Do you ever have those times where your heart feels distant? I think there are times where you can be so on fire for the Lord and He is there!!! .... and then out of nowhere it goes away. I hate that. To me, it's kind of a testing period to where God draws back and we are to continue to draw into Him although we're not feeling/seeing any immediate response.
For the past month (since I've started my new job) I have felt a distant heart from my God. I hate it that my work life is great and then I find myself not constantly speaking with God throughout the day. The good thing - I realize it. God has answered my prayers for a peaceful job- and boy did He deliver! This job is amazing! But even with that said, my praises should NEVER find end. If anything- I should be leaning into Him more.
Please say a prayer for my distant heart. Also, Tony and I are still on the journey to finding a church home - so keep that in your prayers as well. It's very frustrating not being planted in a church home and we've been church goers for the past 5 years! I am so ready to sing for the Lord again. I have not been actively singing for the past 6 years or so - and I love to worship with music. I pray for God's direction to a church home that will allow me the opportunity to worship instead of not allowing any "change" with their worship team.
Also - I've been speaking with a guy that I work with about doing some music for him. He and a friend moved to Tennessee from Florida as their hearts were called to come here and start making worship cd's to give out as ministry to people who may not feel comfortable to walk into a church- this way they can listen to one of the cd's and HOPEFULLY have a heart transformation- if just ONE person gives their life to Jesus... it would ALL be worth it. I am REALLY excited to be apart of the project.
I was talking to Tony the other day and stating - "wouldn't it be such a waste to die today and never have done anything to further the Kingdom?" I know that I have shared the Good News but I want to DO something! I've been looking at some charities to get involved in and hope to help with them. Graceworks looks to be AMAZING! You can find charities to contribute your time and/or money to at www.givingmatters.com
A new day has arrived and His mercy is anew. Thank You for Your Mercy, Heavenly Father. May my heart be distant only for a short while.
"Oh no, You never let go - through the calm and through the storm. Oh no, You never let go - with every high and every low- Oh no, You never let go - No, You never let go of me."
Not of this world,
April Poynter
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Starting this back up
Hey there!
So, I haven't written since 2008... lol!
Here is an update on my life at this point.
Tony and I have been married going on 4 years this year. Trinity is 2 and talking up a storm. She is also working into potty training! FUN!
I just recently resigned from CompuPay where I have spent the past 5 years of my life working and am now working at Sommet Group. I am the assistant to the VP of Payroll who just happens to be the owner of the company as well.
The environment and people are amazing! I feel like I am working in some high rise building in LA! lol! I also received an unbelieveble pay increase!
I also have my own office now and am no longer a cube-rat! The possibilities are endless at this new place and I am very excited for my future there.
All that to say, God is so fantastic! He has heard my prayers and delivered His gifts for my life on His perfect timing. I am blessed. To say I am blessed just doesn't seem like enough. I am thankful just for who my Heavenly Father is.... but His gifts are always so wonderful!
Tony and I have been attending a new church for a little over a month now. It's called The Orchard and it's located in Franklin. The Pastor there is great and at this time there are only about 80 members so Tony, Trinity, and I can really build and maintain relationships. We are excited for our future there and I hope to also join the worship team eventually and rev my engine back up for singing! :o) We'll see what happens.
I'll be 25 tomorrow. Where does the time go? I am still in disbelief! lol!
Well... I shall write more later- just wanted to get this back up and running and I hope you enjoy my future blogs!
Love,
April
So, I haven't written since 2008... lol!
Here is an update on my life at this point.
Tony and I have been married going on 4 years this year. Trinity is 2 and talking up a storm. She is also working into potty training! FUN!
I just recently resigned from CompuPay where I have spent the past 5 years of my life working and am now working at Sommet Group. I am the assistant to the VP of Payroll who just happens to be the owner of the company as well.
The environment and people are amazing! I feel like I am working in some high rise building in LA! lol! I also received an unbelieveble pay increase!
I also have my own office now and am no longer a cube-rat! The possibilities are endless at this new place and I am very excited for my future there.
All that to say, God is so fantastic! He has heard my prayers and delivered His gifts for my life on His perfect timing. I am blessed. To say I am blessed just doesn't seem like enough. I am thankful just for who my Heavenly Father is.... but His gifts are always so wonderful!
Tony and I have been attending a new church for a little over a month now. It's called The Orchard and it's located in Franklin. The Pastor there is great and at this time there are only about 80 members so Tony, Trinity, and I can really build and maintain relationships. We are excited for our future there and I hope to also join the worship team eventually and rev my engine back up for singing! :o) We'll see what happens.
I'll be 25 tomorrow. Where does the time go? I am still in disbelief! lol!
Well... I shall write more later- just wanted to get this back up and running and I hope you enjoy my future blogs!
Love,
April
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