A DISTANT HEART

Good morning friends!

Well, it's a beautiful day today. Actually the past few days have been remarkable. I love sunny days with a breeze before the humidity takes off and ruins everything. lol!

I love summer nights when the stars are shining and the wind is blowing through the trees. I feel God's presence right there in front of me on those nights. I feel as if he is embracing me and speaking to my heart, comforting me and reassuring me of any doubts. I love it so much that I will sleep on the couch so that I can open the balcony door and let the breeze blow in while I sleep. Amazing.

Do you ever have those times where your heart feels distant? I think there are times where you can be so on fire for the Lord and He is there!!! .... and then out of nowhere it goes away. I hate that. To me, it's kind of a testing period to where God draws back and we are to continue to draw into Him although we're not feeling/seeing any immediate response.

For the past month (since I've started my new job) I have felt a distant heart from my God. I hate it that my work life is great and then I find myself not constantly speaking with God throughout the day. The good thing - I realize it. God has answered my prayers for a peaceful job- and boy did He deliver! This job is amazing! But even with that said, my praises should NEVER find end. If anything- I should be leaning into Him more.

Please say a prayer for my distant heart. Also, Tony and I are still on the journey to finding a church home - so keep that in your prayers as well. It's very frustrating not being planted in a church home and we've been church goers for the past 5 years! I am so ready to sing for the Lord again. I have not been actively singing for the past 6 years or so - and I love to worship with music. I pray for God's direction to a church home that will allow me the opportunity to worship instead of not allowing any "change" with their worship team.

Also - I've been speaking with a guy that I work with about doing some music for him. He and a friend moved to Tennessee from Florida as their hearts were called to come here and start making worship cd's to give out as ministry to people who may not feel comfortable to walk into a church- this way they can listen to one of the cd's and HOPEFULLY have a heart transformation- if just ONE person gives their life to Jesus... it would ALL be worth it. I am REALLY excited to be apart of the project.

I was talking to Tony the other day and stating - "wouldn't it be such a waste to die today and never have done anything to further the Kingdom?" I know that I have shared the Good News but I want to DO something! I've been looking at some charities to get involved in and hope to help with them. Graceworks looks to be AMAZING! You can find charities to contribute your time and/or money to at www.givingmatters.com

A new day has arrived and His mercy is anew. Thank You for Your Mercy, Heavenly Father. May my heart be distant only for a short while.

"Oh no, You never let go - through the calm and through the storm. Oh no, You never let go - with every high and every low- Oh no, You never let go - No, You never let go of me."

Not of this world,

April Poynter